I'm so tired
With this struggle
Trying to erase
The image of your face
Yet the portrait
Seems to be permanent
Stuck inside my head
And your name
Still carved inside my heart
Not a single letter been missing
Preserved unwillingly
With the pain I hide
And I'm restless
For your your voice
Still haunts me in my sleep
Awaken my longing
To miss you more
How I wish
For you to go away
But though you were still with me
You were never meant to stay
So please leave
For this torture is too much to take
This agony has taken away my strength
Not a single memory I want to keep
For I was just living in illusion
Craving for the sweetest fantasy

-Mary Elizabeth Graham

Broken wings
Cut by your selfish sword....

Scattered feathers
Torn by your lies......

Fell to the ground
I was......

Left here to die
With heartache
I watched you
Walked away with victory

Vultures surrounded me
Waited patiently
But I refuse
To be their feast

I gathered all my strength
And what's left in me
I sewed back my wings
I patched back the feather
No beauty within
But enough for me
To stand tall
For I want to claim back
My grace..... stolen by you

Wounded soul I am
But the fallen...... I am not

-Mary Elizabeth Graham

Trying to utter your name
Calling out to you
But all I can embrace
It's just your shadow
Dear love.....
Unable to speak
Nor to reach out
I yearn to feel you close
Dying here....
With unspoken memory
Mixed emotion flowing
Through these eyes
Silence echoes
In this room
And I'm wrapped
With loneliness
Fear creeps in
But alone I fight
Realizing......
You've said goodbye so soon
Before I even depart

Lifting up the veil
Revealing my soul for you to taste
Bittersweet truth I hide
Underneath my golden skin

Letting you to take a bite
Forbidden fruit…. I am not
Just rotten a little from dark history
Dare you not? To swallow tainted flesh of mine

And…..

I’m stained with fragrance of the past
Stink it is not…. Just a little decaying scent
So tell me….. Will you still sniff me
Like I’m a sweet ****** cherry

I see you frozen…. Motionless
Say no word because I know the answer
A fool I am for showing you the dark side of mine
When I already recognized the weak side of your lust

-Mary Elizabeth Graham

I am nameless
But my story has a title
Painful betrayal
Soaked with acid lies
Caused me
To lose my identity instantly

Faceless I am
Lost in the middle of sea
Sinking I am not
Though floating
It's not what I choose to be
Burned by the sun
I wish the heat will ignite
The spark of rage

Yet the wind
Keep put out the flame
And I drift
Into the island of nowhere
Not to be found
Neither to be saved

Where do I go from here
With bleeding heart
And wounded soul

But I know I'll be free
Healed and I'll soar

This is my story
And it's called
The art of survival

-Mary Elizabeth Graham

Keep yelling
And I will still be silent
Keep provoking
I ain’t gonna do anything
Can’t you see?
I’m tired of repeating the same ****
What’s more to say?
When you still preaching about death
Wouldn’t make any difference
If I say it will be alright
Still you want me
To keep rambling about ending my life
Unspoken….. but I wanna stay alive
I think I should **** you
So I can live my life
No more whisper
Asking me to commit suicide!

-Mary Elizabeth Graham