I watched as you slowly fell into
the bedroom with another girl
and guy
a couple beers later you appeared
they left, you looked for your *******
and boots
I found them for you
then, as you closed the screen door,
I chimed out,
"See ya"
and you took a step back
from around the corner
with a genuine smile
waved and replied,
"See you too"
in that moment
I saw
the
real
you

i wear my baseball cap backwards
so that everyone around me
can see all of my
half-way decent face
and then I pin
paraphernelia
in the shape of buttons
all around its duck-bill mouth so that
everyone around me
that doesn't care
knows that I care
about
  something,
if not
  everything.
and in due time
I lose some things
that surrounds my head:
the people, the relics.
Safety pins unfastening
from its worn fibers,
and fluttering
behind my arched back.
My mind,
therefore there is no
organic thought
vomitting through me although
arguably,
I very well might be thinking in
my purest form,
and so I settle in that comfort,
leaving behind a trail of buttons
so that everyone around me
that doesn't care about anything knows that
I can be just like them.