god please just come back come
back. i am ripped apart and
shredded into the tiniest pieces
and scattered on the floor. they are
so small that I don't think anyone
would be able to pick them up
even if they wanted to. I swear I
haven't slept a full night since
my fingers weren't allowed to
have yours anymore and I want
your words to be meant for me
again. when do I get to call you
mine and know you aren't going
anywhere? I don't know how to
hold all the aching in my chest
and not have it spill out of my
mouth every time you're around.
I miss your knees and your movie
collection and the way you said
my name so that it sounded like a
promise. you were always enough.

he told me about how ***** his family's money was
stocks under the table and
overcharging black girls
to pull out their babies
i told him he didn't reflect that at all,
and he said he tried to keep his head out of the clouds
as if what i'd said
had been a compliment
as if it wasn't my way of saying
he was too boring
to have a story like that.

the only time i feel a thing
for him
is when we argue.

what is love
to someone without
a heart.

I feel like every
time I see you
it's like I have
forgotten how
to breathe up
until that point.
I'm not sure
how I am ever
without you.

i swear to god,
every bit of my body
is crying
besides my eyes.

he'll never be you.