We all start from the bottom.
But now I'm slowly relearning how to climb back to the top.

I realized today that I have
stopped living life.
I am literally just trying to get
to the next day, just living in the
thought of tomorrow.
I am not living, I am waiting.
And the trouble is, I don't know what
I am exactly waiting for. I am kind of
scared for what it might be.

In some cases I am hardest on the ones I love most

I hope you still think of me
I hope you still drink for me
I hope all the lights
feel so dim
when you're missing me

Because, not to be cocky, but I was the light in your life
sure, I was a bit messed up
but I wasn't the one holding the knife
you know, the knife you used to stab me in the back
now, I'm paralyzed.
I can't walk up to the thought of trusting someone the way I trusted you
So, look exactly what you made me do
now I'm worse, all thanks to you
I thought you loved me
but you can't let me be
now you torture  me
and why would this be happening?
because I said those words
the words that shot the relationship that once soared
and what did I say?
I said I love you
and I said it once more

I wasn't ready, to say goodbye.