Forgive me
Today
For I'm done living
Yesterday pains

Forgive me
Today
For I'm breaking
Tomorrow promises

Forgive me
Today
For I don't wish
Staying awake

Forgive me
Today
For all the memories
Forever save

Forgive me
Today
For tomorrow I might
Take my life away...

©2014 Maman Screams

I scroll this roll till I roll, I've rolled
Over and under this valley so cold
No sky too high for I limitlessly strive
To win your heart and a place in your life

I hold this long for I long, I've longed
To be use and abuse by you so wrong
You spoken the words of sober and true
I'll keep that in mind to guide me through

I trip on love still I trip, I've tripped
Wandering deeper in this reality too deep
Where do we begin from here you speak
Lets start a new chapter and not rush to the peak

I've never expect or demand a say
Forcing to love it's not just my way
I believe and I will continue to wait
You are worthy please believe it
That's why I'm still here, can you see me?

©2014 Maman Screams

Creating illusions from reality
Infusing dreams with serenity
Casting away from this catastrophe
Remembering your mortality
Seeking love seem inevitably
Losing you would be such tragedy
Would you follow me in this fantasy
Which I created for you, eternity.

©2013 Maman Screams

If only life could be certain
With a drop of a poet's ink
A freedom of speech taints
As the piling papers sink
Nothing was written
No eyewitness sinned  
Seeing is believing
And so they preach
Puzzles made seems so easy
A minor once plea
How could they be so foolish
When they're set out to deal
With a thousand and one possibility
To this puzzle
That I'm currently in

@2014 Maman Screams

Broken glasses beneath my roots
Scattered memories of a girl I knew
Penetrating fragments through my open wounds
Would it be simpler to be abuse
Leaving taints as the march's wind blew
Opening circles of rendezvous
Dreams may now seems like a dejavu
Was it really you the girl I knew
Now just became part of the muse
The girl I once knew

©2014 Maman Screams

Two souls entangled
Indulging with something new
Both left breathless
Suffocating in truth
Lights escaping
Darkening this tunnel
Embarking new adventures
On the other side
Its true

We could have created lights
Brightening up
This heart that took flight
With fragile wings
I'll guide you through
Never to leave you
I swear its true

I spread my wings
It was angelic you said
Oh so beautiful
Before my fingers could interlock with you
You disintegrate before me
You doubted my wings
That have been carrying you  

I stood fix silenced
Not knowing what hit me
Holding on tightly to what's real
The memories I treasured
Oh so dearly
Even when all channels
Disconnecting energies of us two

Your sudden absence
Left me confused
In between space split in two
At my lowest and humble truth
My heart still stays with you
For I won't embark to the other side
This piece of adventure
Was only meant for me and you

If ever a day you seek me through
Your heart will bring you to my solitary
Intertwined...

©2013 Maman Screams

Alarming weather of a stormy coax
Subjected to approval while reposing hoax
Judging panels for this pandemonium chords
Refraining orders for the minority shrouds
All hail I'll never place my dignity down
You know I've always love you
Or am I just your clown

©2014 Maman Screams

Sanity...

Burn my trees with
Raging spring's desires
Toxic my river with
Flowing summer's sadness
Pollute my air with
Falling autumn's hopes
Hold my heart with
Freezing winter's loves

Cycle this year
Slow perserverance
A step at a time
Patience guidance
Demanding sacrifices
Thoughtful fickled flights
Fairy tale's stories
Deceiving future plights

Weighing both shoulders
Declining all offers
Not all goods
Guaranteed for auctions
Bidding the worst
Inviting trial lessons
For our life's
Full of surprises

Grinding salts from
Summer's sadness
Drizzling our plate of
Spring's desires
Infused balance reviving
Autumn's hopes
Undying believes in our
Winter's loves

Life is a cycle revolving mystery
Spinning the air that we're breathing
Falling those tears our eyes are crying
Rising with smiles from our cherish presents
Rewinding the clock for our future predicaments
Not realising we will always be
A full circle

©2014 Maman Screams

Bottle this feelings with ***** and sprite
Let's dance this life throughout the night
Am I not in this with you by my side
We'll fly away far out of sight

You speak of love
So harsh so harsh
Let me love you now
So hush so hush

My poems don't rhyme like they did before
No longer my ocean waves hits the shore
Wondering where could my love adore
My heart may have truly met it's core

Never have I tried
So hard so hard
Only to be hurt
So crush so crush

This is not the part where the ship take sail
Where the ending is oh so fairly tale
Listen when I promise you this in a mail
I love you sincerely and forever I will

©2014 Maman Screams

Chase the heights held above
Climb this lights shone under
Confused this love with lawyer's words
Messed up life just like the minister

Living this earth that's full of nothing
Emptiness sets when we stop believing

But what is there left to feel
When reality seems no longer real
Do we seek refuge deep in our sleeps
Where we feel alive and not just creeps

I found love while you were dreaming
When our body entwine synchronise hearts beating

Building castles high till it's never ending
To prevent ourselves from always repeating
Chemistry burned physical history erasing
A fresh new love spring we're breathing

Everything was living and in a wheel
Till your mind held bound your eyes's flickering
Forcing reality that god only made temporary
Not realising we've been given the opportunity
To live our dreams in our world
We shall feel its real

©2014 Maman Screams

I ink blood to write poetry
Deep within the layers of my skin

A felt of freedom in discreetly
No words I could start nor begin

Every dip to this poet so deep
Submerging lines of such flighty pills

Every words that I ought to speak
I shall wrote it down with my
Feather Quill

©2014 Maman Screams

You almost made me forget
Nightmare that once tormented me
Each night when my soul adrift
You almost made me remember
Rainbows and butterflies does exist
In this world that I don't believe
I've been through more than you think
I am almost afraid of everything
Around you, my fears and worries
Almost cease from existing
Allowing me to relive my dreams
But then I remember
No matter how sweet thing is currently
Always to bring my safety shield
But it was too late
I'm falling even before I could remember
The look upon your face
That I was in love with
Falling in deeper than ever
Into the depth of my selfish fears

Oh dear god
Please don't let me sleep
I'm afraid to dream
For dream have created nightmares
In my reality

©2013 Maman Screams

I got my ears plugged
Eyes tight
And
Lips shut
Reluctantly refusing
Self alluring truth
Profusely inviting
Petty captivating lies
Reinventing exits
To build refuges
Soothing fugitives
Before the hurricane rise
Are we daydreaming
When the sun's ray shines
Or are we relieving
Among the moon night sky
Promises burying hatchet
Imparting forgotten hatred
Cycling seems to be reversed
Rewinding lost tapes reserve
All this delusions inverse
Contrary motions now swerves
Hallucinating angles preserved
For I shall ink no further
The truth of this lies tethered
As this true blue love leaves
Incepting my stray mind free

©2014 Maman Screams

My words,
They speak,
In depth too deep.
I was lost,
Too long,
Travelling in this limbo, I'm in.
But then,
My eyes,
Caught a glimpse of a youth.
Is it a female?
Or male?
Or my eyes been fooled.
My mind,
That night,
Was lost in the woods.
I was far too deep in this forest,
Oh Spring.
The moon,
Was shining,
Illuminating the silhouette,
Got me fixed.
This face,  
It's beauty,
Swept me off with such graceful sin.
For this beauty,
My heart,
It beat a rhythm, too familiar it seems.
9 years,
So long,
I couldn't less agree.
Old flames,
Rekindled.
My legs grow weaker as I paced down to you.
My heart,
They shy,
Like a kid in love, so true.
And there,
You are,
My eyes wasn't lying when they caught you.
This perfect vision could just be blind,
If it were to miss.
This beauty,
I had once knew.
Our bodies collide under this crimson moon.
Praising misses and kisses,
Two hearts,
One love,
They fused.
Is this,
The sign,
That we both could conclude.
Or we could just forget,
The world,
Just lay,
Together and forever,
Till the Autumn flowers bloom.

©2013 Maman Screams

Neglecting lights shining ahead
Providing insurance of love again
Infusing with minimal nights instead
Withdrawing dignity could just be sane

Full of lies
Filled with liars
I'm in pain

Travelling again down this road of shame
Burying my pride engulfed in flames
The back of my mind have gone astray
Looking for my final resting place

You don't care
Say you do
Maybe I change

For this world is so pretentious and fake
May tomorrow be a better day
With or without your heart you say
Don't you worry
I'll be fine away

@2014 Maman Screams

You heard my heart when it speaks of truth
You read my poetries and felt them too
It wasn't your mind that got intrigued
It was your heart I gave my love to...*

©2013 Maman Screams

You'll never breathe the air that you desire
You aim high up only to fall in complete dire
You search for pieces of what's left unattended
The pain for pleasure heavenly greeted
The thrill rides will never be on favour
Hallucination agents dilating pupils
Producing optics illussion of colours
Reflecting mirror emotions taints
Through cracks of the window panes
Countings stars that steal flames
Flickering lights of blinding fame
De Ja Vu striked you rebelling
For this world not the reality claimed
Only temporary trial and error games
For what's down beneath indulging
This sweet bedazzling lies conjuring
Worshippers who breathe yet still denying
Organizing multiple ******* swines
Downloading stereotypical in the line
To shore your life's daze in waves
Capturing precious ocean's bay
Till the knightly light gives way
For the elegant moon cautiously lay
Theatrical role play of regrets portray
From worrying writes which convey

Nirvana awaits for those who ....

A strip of paper that was torn at the edge
Which could only be found deep within
Heart's page

©2014 Maman Screams

You treat me a like a child,
like I've never grown out from the cradle,
My Late Mom's once shook.

You claimed yourself a dad,
But you break your tree to feed this greed,
You're blinded, you fool.

I still remember,
The pain you put throughout my life,
And My Late Mom's too.

You never believe me,
Even destroyed all my dreams, I've chased,
I'll never forgive you.

It wasn't you,
That took me in and raised me up,
My Late Mom's begs you.

You took all credits,
You drove me out of this roof to hell,
I'm half dead through.

Now you've got no room,
For I've grown up with a vengeance,
You should be careful.

But don't you worry,
I've made a promise on My Late Mom's tomb,
I'll never hurt you.

Just leave to karma,
This life, this world, we're living,
Always spins right back at you.

©2013 Maman Screams

Test me against my wills
Throw me at my wits
Hurt me till I bleed

For the river still flows
To the ocean tides low
Till my last dying sorrow

Conclusion

For love I'll not forsake
Everything for your sake
To prove to you what I'm made
To love you genuinely
I'll take...

©2014 Maman Screams

Left alone to face this throne
A confinement chained to the stone
Present this soul with a coroner's role
For sin he have to uphold
Laying soulless amongst hatred ghost
Seeking peace seem inevitably at lost
Through the rumbles of this forsaken
Chasing dreams that was once forgotten
Giving up is not part of the options
Praying could be his only...
Silence

For a chance to be love...
By her...
Smiles

©2014 Maman Screams

I'm sinking deeper in between
Falling into spaces within
My heart's beating
Filling in vessels
That was left abandon during the fractions
My mind's leaking
Pleasant sweet memories
You've left embedded
When you created stars while I was dreaming
Each time when you forsake me
Disappearing swiftly
Into the nights leaving only rememberings
My heart is searching
For every time
When the night skies reigns
Only the moon and the stars
Can they explain

THE MOON

You are my moon
And I am the night
Showering you love always
While you light up my sight
Your silent sacrifices always goes
Unheard
Selfishly enduring rays from the morning light
Burns
For I'll understand
When night falls and you leave me
Dancing alone with the stars
I'm thinking

THE STARS

You are my stars
Drawn so perfectly in my sky
You twinkled and danced to the firelight
Reminding me throughout
My night
Why should I still reign
When my moon is nowhere out of sight
For the moon needs her space
To heal from the morning light rays
Soon she will resurface
Promising a smile on her face
I'm missing

For your stars is still here
Dearly my heart hold on to your memories
For I will patiently wait for the moon
You should know that you're worthy
So come what may
Even the morning light rays
I'll still hold on to my words
Even if I'm left here to hurt

@2014 Maman Screams

Your touch melts my skin
Seconds passed as the sunset sinks
Your pipe blew me breeze
Different night but same old routine
Sitting by this window pane
Interacting alone with selfless pain
Why have you brought me here again
In this dark space empty terrain
Please give me an answer
I'm desperate to ask questions
Mind intercepted while words devoured
Disconnecting me from your reality
My heart just want to keep me real

@2014 Maman Screams

Every pieces of me
Is breaking apart
Before I could even
Adjust your shutter speed

©2014 Maman Screams

I ran far beyond my wildest dreams
Cutting traces from this cruelty
Weighing choices are made from within
Throwing options away indubitably

Is this how we all choose to breathe
Reeling lies in our deadliest sleeps
Digging trenches deep so low beneath
Waiting silently in hope for fate to leap

Is this how we're suppose to breathe
Who are they kidding in the beginning
Applying scientific fictions rotting pleas
Infusing chlorine in their brainwashing scheme

Is this how they have always breathe
Remaking history into a theatrical comedy
Relinquish hopes for a cinematic filth
Draining youth of their liberties

Is this how we should continue to breathe
Or shall we rise above towering castles
Chasing infinity throughout the universe
Owning our rights
To love...
To hope...
To dream...
To *BREATHE

Your smoky cloud foams
Got my eyes tripping
Chronicles of biology lab
Lacking of chemistry
You burn your forest down
Slowly reaping
Lucid crystals bowls
Enticingly got me dreamy
Two individuals
Trapped in a poetry emotion
Reminiscing on each other
Mysterious sedation
Writing of riddles
With sincerest caution
Preventing straying lines
Infecting our rhythm
Hearts shattering mirrors
Reflecting smiles
Memorizing words
Into a typography file
Reflecting daily circumstances
Shadows by my side
No one could judged
Your moody ocean tide
Like a fish flying high
Against the currents flow pride
If I could continue writing
Scribbles with your permission
No words in my vocabulary
Could ever substantially passed
I've never caramelized
My riddles with lies
Sugar coating inks
Luring ****** and flies
If my feelings for you
Never sober and true
Why does it hurts
When I'm thinking about you
There is no other love
I could simply lose
Valentine just over
But..
I'm still missing you

@2014 Maman Screams