Most college students will find any reason they can to drink
And I used to think it was completely stupid
Until the day you left
Now I too will find any reason to drink
Or any reason to get high
Because I’m looking for anything to take off the edge
Anything you get you off my mind

I would like
To be on drugs
Just for one day
Not to get addicted
Just so i can let loose
Show a different side of me
Allow me to see the world differently
Allow me to forget my pain, and sorrow.

However I am conflicted
Drugs may make me loose my mind
I may end up rotting in prison
I may harm myself
I may harm others
I may shorten my lifespan
Drugs
Drugs
Drugs

I know that going in and laying with you
Was anything but good for me
But when I was laying in your arms
Everything stopped.
I wasn’t concerned about school tomorrow
I wasn’t worried about your mom or sister coming in
I wasn't thinking about her.
And that worries me most
Because drugs do the same things.
They take your mind off of things.
And that’s just what you are.
A drug
You aren't doing me any good
**But oh god it feels so great

Today I saw you walking with her

I know you said that you wouldn’t be ready

and that you hadn’t moved on

But for some stupid reason I’m still caught up over you

For some stupid reason when I saw you with her

A pang of jealousy hit me hard

For some stupid reason I got nervous seeing you there

Hoping you would come in and see me

But wishing with everything I had that you wouldn’t

Maybe its just lust

But I know I shouldn’t be feeling this way

And I know that its not okay

But for some stupid reason

Here I am