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She has the legs of a model
The type that would make grown men cry
With the body of a goddess
She had no reason to be modest
She had the potential to anything
But she happened to my greatest weakness
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Little did I know that prettiest ******* the block
Had a secret
On the outside she looked decent
Some might even say beautiful
But on the inside she was a little wicked
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She had this look in her eyes
That would turn any wondering man's life around
Maybe it was lust, Maybe it was fear
Maybe I shouldn't have listened to the devil in my ear
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But as I stared into her eyes
I was surprised I didn't go blind
Instead I started feeling cold
From my pinky toe all the way up to my nose
And that's when I realised who she really was
But it was too late because
My heart already turned into stone
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Lowkie ®

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Dear Mom
I'm writing you this letter
Hoping that you will never get to read it
Your son is growing up now
Did you know he is poet now
He wants to tell you
But he afraid it might be another thing
That you won't allow
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Dear Dad
I want to say you're the reason
As to why I'm so sad
But I don't cause I don't want you to feel bad
Growing up without you wasn't really that hard
But maybe with you around
I could of went down a different path
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There's more letters burning in the fire
I might have used one or two pages
To roll some joints to get higher
Daydreaming about better days
As the fire blaze
-
Lowkie ®

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Someone asked me
"What was your life like before the depression?"
And without hesitation, I asked him
"Don't you have a better question?"
I could not give him a straight answer
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For as long as I can remember
I had a imaginary companion
Living inside my head like he is a rent payer
He told me sweet stories
His favourite one was
"Nothing matters, Dying is way better"
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He gave me advice
"Cut off your friends and family" he said
"Lock yourself up in your room" he said
"Starve yourself, nobody cares" he said
"Take this razor, be careful it's sharp.
Don't say I never got you anything nice"
He said while smiling from ear to ear
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He called himself Depression
He invited himself into my house
Along with Anxiety his spouse
And ever since they moved in
Nothing was the same
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Lowkie ®

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She said she had a lot of baggage
Running from things she's been avoiding
Since a young age
I told her we were in the same boat
I'm also trying to stay afloat
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Few days later I was her favourite
Late night calls and early texts
Those park dates were best
Surrounded by a crowd but it feel like
It was just the two of us
We would bearly notice the rest
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I said with you I don't feel alone
And that my feelings for came like a cyclone
Maybe I came in too strong
But I felt weak after she said
I feel like that too
But we should keep it in the friendzone
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Lowkie ®

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It's 3am and I'm drowning
In a pool of my sorrow
I might end up saying things
I'll regret tomorrow
But who cares anyways
The time we're living on is borrowed
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It's 3am and all I can think about is you
You were the last thing on my mind
To tell you the truth
But when the lights went off and the music stopped
As I'm tossing and turning
And the room keeps spinning
All I could see was you
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Now I know this makes no sense
Since we both agreed that was our last dance
Forgive me for blowing up your phone
But in my defence
I had too much to drink with my phone in my hand
Scrolling through the pictures of the time we had
Replaying old memories in my head
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Lowkie ®

Trapped in my mental cage
With no bars made from steel
Only scars that do not heal
With no celling
Only dreams that are too far to reach
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Wake up from my sleep cause the nightmares keep haunting me
Falling asleep because these thoughts keep taunting me
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People reaching out to save me but really I'm right where I need to be
So forget about me and you go be free
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I'm trapped in a mental cage
Fighting back this burning rage
Pouring my heart out as you keep turning the page
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Everyday I tell myself I will be okay
And the skeletons in my closet will be buried away
And it will be a brighter day
Until I wake up
And that dream fades away
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Lowkie ®