The moments when I miss you
feel so cold
Who am I missing?

I never knew who you were
but I swear there were moments I did
I can still feel them
the pinch in my stomach from our hard laughs
the small tears that would fill our eyes when we'd say
you're the one
your breath against my neck
when you'd pull me close

Then the ball forms in my throat
because I don't know if those moments were real, baby
*only you do

How did I never see
the evil person behind the deep green eyes?
You had me so fooled
in your game of manipulation
I wish I could've seen the signs
or of been less blind

She told me how you made her do things
she said she didn't want to
How you had her so wrapped in your game
believing you loved her too
That time you kept going
after she said stop

How ******* dare you
crawl in bed with me
make love to me
convince me.

Fooling everyone
to think you're a better person.

I wonder what the next one will be like
I wonder if you'll ever tell her
About me
About what you did
If you do,
I'm curious if you'll blame me it on me
The same way I've blamed myself.

Will you make her believe?
Are you going to be as convincing?
Will she ever know you?
In the way I wish I did

I hope she can read your lies
Just as quick as they fall from your lips
I imagine she'll be able to see the glitch on your shoulder
That reads my name.

I have to stay away
Be stronger
Break free of the hold
You have on me

You're really not that special anymore
But I'm starting to see
That I might be