i used to be independent making every move on my own. but now i seek help/guidance on everything i need done. i wanna say i lost myself but i don’t know where. it’s almost as if the further i get away from you i slowly disappear. it’s been years since i’ve even seen you, or heard your soft voice. but i know you still think of me because you’ll check on me every few months. i tell you i’m doing great because in reality i am. but beneath the layers there’s pain that i don’t think anyone knows that’s there. i try to stay busy and keep people near but i have so much emotion that it’s hard to conceal. i still run from my problems if you ever wondered i don’t have the strength to face them head on. i lost that in you and never regained that. but one thing you did teach me is how to love deep and that is something i’ll never forget just like you i’ll never forget.
if i wrote my future all would be changed from the way i was raised to the thoughts in my brain if i wrote my future no love would be lost so i’d stand right beside you no matter the cost if i wrote my future i’d bring nothing but peace and save you from sorrow and the darkness that creeps if i wrote my future you’d still be here but you wrote my future and i did nothing but stare
look up, you’ll see the stars look down, you’ll see the grass look back, you’ll see your past look ahead, you’ll see your future me, i see you in every direction you are there always