“It has been a little more than a month, and I still find myself crying. I have never really cried out loud before, but these cries are more like wails, and I can’t keep quiet. They rip my chest open and make me want to cry harder, even though it’s physically impossible for me to do so.”

Heart break has no mercy

But time does

No reason to stay

Is a perfectly good reason to go.

Crimson tears still flow through my veins
But I am not sure how
Because I haven’t felt alive since the day you left
I haven’t felt like myself

My legs still walk and my voice still talks
But my skin feels foreign now
Every day is a battle to get out of bed
With the memory of you still rife in my head

But there’s a voice inside
And I’m not sure where she resides
But she whispers into my ears

“Get up and keep going”

So I fight gravity to stand up on my feet
Even though it’s really hard
But the truth is very plain to see
I never needed you
I only needed me

Momma taught me that life was unfair

So maybe that’s why he gets to walk away
Unscathed

While I stand here, beaten and bruised, desperately trying to hold myself together

Your fire may have died down
And it may seem to heavy to fly
But you are still a dragon;
And those tears will subside