i think i like it:
the way that you look at my face and feel the guilt writhe in your stomach
as you remember that you forgot me

you should have been there
to hold me back
keep me from jumping
keep me on track
top of the building
wind in my hair
made a mistake
breathing in the air
got what i deserved
knew it when i hit the ground
but it still hurt
because you weren't around
you should have been there
before i made the cut
before i ended it all
should've trusted my gut
the color red
staining my eyes
visions of you
right before my demise
you should have been there
before i took the pills
swallowed them whole
one of many kills
rejecting my own body
choking on my spit
it'll be over soon
should've known this was it

He said he loved me
and I gave him my heart
Then he left,
and I fell apart
All I wanted
was to have something real
But I left my smile on my face
for him to steal
He's not here
to kiss the cuts on my skin
I should have known
that I would never win
I let his poison under my skin
Because I was so desperate to let him in
So desperate for the taste of his lips
That I let him tear me until he covered me in rips
I miss the stories that he would spin
No one ever told me that love was a sin
Watching my tears fall to the ground
Hoping there will soon be enough to drown

without you,
          i can't seem to do anything
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crimson beads
on a pale wrist
blade digging
white-knuckled fist
tears flood
from sparkling eyes
wishing for
a quick demise
a painful love
piercing heart-flesh
lips like velvet
on cuts still fresh
a dream of a lover
of someone so sweet
a lovely human
to make me complete