a slap from the one who always stood by my side
hurt more than being
stabbed a thousand times
if I could turn back time
I wouldn't disappoint you again
so, please
trust me once more
I promise ill hold onto it
like nothing else
exits
ill love, you like you never felt the pain
when you're old
I'll hold your hand
and when you near the end
I'll be someone you're proud of
so trust me

if messages could be conveyed through words
the world wouldn't be what it is today
so take action

I don't want to live
but I don't want to die either
so you ask
what do I want
it's simple
I want you

I hear you.
I know you’ve been telling your friends **** about me.
I see people looking at me because of you.
But they don’t know what I know.
They don’t know about what you told me.
And they don’t know me.
But I know you.
I hear you.

A fake smile
covers the eyes and conceals true feelings.

Clean wrists, now stained
remain.
Reminders of the past.

Memories   linger  
like the smell of *****.
***** that destroys thoughts, only to return in the morning.

Haunting, covered by a fake smile.

what should I do
I can't stand myself
being so weak
as I try to hide these tears