sometimes
it feels like I am closing in
on the universe
and its secrets
like it opened its arms
to give me a shower of knowledge
stars rushing to my mind
whispering words of enlightenment
twinkling
showing me the path
leading to the magic
that is life

just in case
you’re in a dark place
and can’t seem
to find a light switch
or matches even
I want you to know
you are loved
maybe not by yourself
yet
but you are
even though it sounds
like a fairytale for now
at some point
you’ll find the light switch
or the matches
and you’ll be able to see
that the fairytale
came true
and you’re the one
that made it happen

I wanted you to love me because I'm truthful,
    But I forgot, there's always more fun in fiction.

every day I catch sun rays

and put them in my pocket

take them home

place them in my drawer

shut it tight then lock it

all the rays I save for gloomy days

then give them all away

for every day I hope to make

a bright and sunny day

A world with people and daily lies,
Rushing people day and night,
but so many truths left behind.

All the evil we try to hide
still reveals itself to the outside.
We hold it and we do try
but lies, like oil on water
Still float to rise.

I always wanted to change the world
but the world ended up changing me
and though my thoughts and memories haunt me
at least they keep me company

My whole body aches
sadness seeps into my bones
and crawls into the cracks of my veins
and trapped in my body it remains

You started a fire in me
and now all is left is decay
because when a glass heart beats
it shatters

I have knives dancing on my tongue
and i have a tendency to spit them out
pass me the poison
ill try and drown them out

So i'll drink whiskey as bitter as me
do drugs to feel something
ill do anything to escape the reality
that in life you have all or nothing.

I thought love was bruises and broken hearts
I was taught that pain was the point of it all
because if you aren't in pain
are you alive at all?

I thought i found a home in your heart
but it turns out it was only for rent
rent that i couldn't afford

Painted in suffering
Sculpted by regret
Our love was an art form
That we didn't appreciate

There is a place deep in the woods
To everyone else unknown.
My own secluded hideaway;
A home away from home.

It’s there I feel the most myself,
No part of me to hide.
It’s there I feel the presence of God,
He’s right there by my side.

The trees have heard my deepest thought
And birds have sung my song.
Under the golden rays of sun
Is right where I belong.

It’s moments when I’m by myself
That I feel less alone.
There, in the silence of the woods
Is where I’ve truly grown.