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Jan 2021 · 94
Protect You
Keah Jones Jan 2021
I cannot protect you

not like you protected me

my body was giving into the darkness of my brain

and now your body is giving into itself

nerve by nerve

muscle by muscle

you are fading

you have lost control

you have lost your freedom

and that is the saddest story i have ever told
Jan 2021 · 95
Honey
Keah Jones Jan 2021
Honey, you said
I hope this kills me
not at a slow dance pace
but quickly

Honey, you said
I hope this kills you
not at a slow dance of a pace
but quickly
nothing is promised
do not take anything for granted
Dec 2020 · 71
Mutation
Keah Jones Dec 2020
Genes
every one is a gamble
what makes a human who they are
and the terrifying part is so much is still in question

what we will become is unknown
percentages, chances,
the odds are a gamble

and as I watch you
i cant help but pray to god the odds are in my favor

this mutation has taken over your body
shedding pound after pound
each nerve stressed to its limit
each muscle begging to give in

fingers curled and toothpick legs fighting to find their footing
a brain that is losing memories faster than they were created

the body will only endure this kind of pain for so long

and as i watch you
i cant help but pray to god the odds are in my favor
Mar 2020 · 90
Until we meet again
Keah Jones Mar 2020
I will swallow your memory until we meet again
in the future where your ghosts and mine align

I have grown up you see
in a limbo of half way there and almost here

and someday soon our opposite worlds will align
Mar 2020 · 81
Who was there?
Keah Jones Mar 2020
She told me that she is the reason I am alive
like she takes the credit for the fight I went through

but what she doesn't realize is
she wasn't there when the electricity coursed through my brain
I woke up alone to a nurse shaking me, telling me I was ok
I couldn't dress myself
I was wheeled to the curb and into the trust of a stranger
I had to ask the cab to stop on so i could ***** in the street
she wasn't there when I couldn't remember yesterday

But she takes credit for the fight I went through
a draft from years ago
Feb 2020 · 136
the past
Keah Jones Feb 2020
I keep my sneakers by my bed in case i need to run away from these nightmares
the ones where the ghosts of my past come chasing me down
clawing at my skin to get inside of me
forcing their way down my throat to consume me

i keep my sneakers by my bed so my nightmares can't catch up with me
Oct 2019 · 132
Too Much
Keah Jones Oct 2019
look
i know I'm too much
too kind
too curious
too sensitive
too emotional
but i will weather the storm
the one that is breaking between us
the one where i am too afraid that i might lose you i won't blink
for in that second i may lose you

look
you need to realize
everyone that came before you left
had an excuse
i will sabotage myself until the world rocks off its axis
but i will not let go of you

so please stay and the world will align again
and the stars will shine
and i will know that you are here
Aren't we all a little too much..
Oct 2019 · 375
This Way
Keah Jones Oct 2019
i wasn't always this way
i want you to know that
take it in
imagine me happy
imagine me full of life
I'm sorry that you didn't see that
I'm sorry that all you had was the destruction that i was
she was not always this way
I wish you knew her then
Oct 2019 · 115
Scattered
Keah Jones Oct 2019
Slipping through my fingers like that of sand through an hourglass
The flame of life is being smothered
And it may not feel real
But i wont fall i will not open this flesh
I will hide the pain inside
Never to be seen
Until it is a scattered masterpiece of me
Oct 2019 · 184
Protect
Keah Jones Oct 2019
I cannot protect you from this
and oh how i wish i could
you will be confused
you will be angry
you will be hurt

but this is not about you baby boy
you have not done anything wrong
Jan 2019 · 171
Untitled
Keah Jones Jan 2019
And when you're falling are you going to scream?
Are you going to fight the air you are rushing through?
Jan 2019 · 179
Never coming home
Keah Jones Jan 2019
Life hit hard that day
I realized you were gone
The pit in my stomach threatening to force it's way out

I miss you

I hear you everyday
I feel you under my skin
I dream of you

And then the harsh reality awakens with me
You are never coming home
Mar 2018 · 389
white knuckle warrior
Keah Jones Mar 2018
When someone loves you
Hold onto it
Hold onto it so tight you are a white knuckle warrior
And do not let go
Sep 2017 · 421
Untitled
Keah Jones Sep 2017
I will not go
I am in this
I am the warrior of the wars in your head
I am the colonel of the battle being fought
I am stoic in the bitterest of crisis
you will have to rip me from the soil i stand on
drag me away until nothing is left
Sep 2017 · 374
Untitled
Keah Jones Sep 2017
There's no name for this heartbreak
it's gale force winds ripping at my heart
it's fire in my eyes
it's a stone in my stomach

When i say there is no name for this heartbreak
i mean there is no more heart for you and i
Sep 2017 · 288
hurt
Keah Jones Sep 2017
It hurt.
the way you left
gritted teeth in a silent mouth

it hurt,
walking out those doors
mascara like waterfalls down my cheeks

it hurt.
telling me you wouldn't be home
left wondering if your with her

it hurt.
the way you left
it hurt
Aug 2017 · 348
do you remember me
Keah Jones Aug 2017
do you remember me
bruised and beaten
spun around
no sense of direction

do you remember me
wild and fearless
laughing without a cause

do you remember me at all?
Aug 2017 · 398
stumbling
Keah Jones Aug 2017
you stumbled into my life with a mouth full of forevers
and now here i am writing about you because forever ended too soon
it ended with an i love you but you want too much
it ended in tears and fists full of I'm sorries
Aug 2017 · 246
Untitled
Keah Jones Aug 2017
sometimes life throws you head ******* first into the flames and expects you to drown them
Jun 2017 · 463
before you go
Keah Jones Jun 2017
Before I met you i was an unnamed hurricane
i was destruction leaving only pain in my wake
the earth rattled beneath my feet and threatened to swallow me whole

then you came along
and the chaos calmed
the storm began to settle

you kissed the scars on my being
kissed them like they were something beautiful
like they helped configure my whole
when everyone saw them as something missing

and the thought of you leaving is a riptide dragging me further out to sea
it is the end of my beginnings
creating an aftermath so tragic i cannot fathom the wreckage

so before you go remember that you are the reason for my breathing
and know that you touched someone more than you'll ever know.
Apr 2017 · 1.5k
for you, i hope
Keah Jones Apr 2017
I hope you find it brave girl
i hope you find someone that does more than embrace your flaws
no, i hope you find someone that colors outside your lines
someone that sees your rough edges and jigsaws themselves to fit into you
i hope that you find that brave girl
i hope you are loved like you deserve
Apr 2017 · 792
Spiderwebs
Keah Jones Apr 2017
all these words are spiderweb tangled in my head
I can't seem to string them into a coherent strand of letters
spelling out how much i love you
Feb 2017 · 509
How you looked at me
Keah Jones Feb 2017
You looked at me like I held your world upon my chest
And god did I want to be strong enough to carry it through this life
But I wasn't
So slowly continent by continent I handed it back to you
Hesitantly you took it
Tucking it away
Waiting for someone else to come along and piece it back together
Feb 2017 · 859
heartbreak isn't beautiful
Keah Jones Feb 2017
you wear heartbreak around your neck
like a string of pearls for everyone to see
and darling I will be the first to tell you it is not beautiful
Jan 2017 · 666
missing pieces
Keah Jones Jan 2017
at 16 you had your heart handed to you by a boy in a truck
he said he was done with it
that it wasn’t worth anything
so you slipped it ****** and barely beating back into your chest
before you realized a part of it was missing
because he kept part on his dash like a trophy of his conquest
Jan 2017 · 429
behind every word
Keah Jones Jan 2017
So by now have you figured out that behind every word I write is your name?
Dec 2016 · 328
Untitled
Keah Jones Dec 2016
i am trying to dry the tsunami's that are welling in my eyes when all i can think of is you
Dec 2016 · 374
since then
Keah Jones Dec 2016
since then
my demons have crawled down my throat and nestled their way into my very being
i have regurgitated all happiness that once clung to my body
and siphoned the hope out of my heart

i have spent entire nights calculating how many mg's it would take to reach the brink but not step over
and wondered what it would be like to free fall into oblivion

i have been hospitalized three times
and drawn my own blood countless times
hoping that if i practice enough i could create a masterpiece

i have also found atomic love
the kind that rattles your bones and draws you closer to the sun than you ever thought you'd get
but bombs tend to detonate and i broke my own heart

i have made my mother cry begging me to eat
curled up in the bed next to her and cried until i fell asleep

since then my world has shifted on it's axis
and come to a complete halt
.
Dec 2016 · 853
dancing down the hallway
Keah Jones Dec 2016
she is dancing down the hallway
laughing like the world is made of all the good things
like her favorite flowers and twinkling lights

and god how i wish i could bottle this moment
pull her close and protect her from the harsh reality of heartbreak
when she realizes that not everything is made out of ribbons and glitter

but for now i revel in this moment
watching her twirling down the hallway
thinking that she is my world
that she is full of all the good things
Dec 2016 · 464
breaking the suns back
Keah Jones Dec 2016
we broke the suns back as she climbed the mountain just to spend a few more heartbeats wrapped around each other
Dec 2016 · 582
my dear
Keah Jones Dec 2016
my dear
do not fall for the broken ones
i know what it's like to crave being needed
but just because they are broken doesn't mean you can fix them

my dear
never blame timing
i strongly believe that everything happens when it happens for a reason

my dear
love at first sight is real
however that doesn't mean it will last forever

my dear
let the world bruise you
let it tear you apart
this is the only way to learn that you can heal from anything

my dear
there is no beauty in being damaged
there is beauty in surviving
there is respect in surviving
and there is art in surviving

my dear
never try and fill the void you feel with another's body
this will only make it bigger

my dear
we tend to break our own hearts
loving others too much and ourselves too little


my dear
you have to accept that some people will stay in your heart and on your mind endlessly
but i promise it won't hurt forever
Keah Jones Dec 2016
you can't just be replaced
i cannot super glue this splintered house of my heart back together
i refuse to let your cheshire cat smile fade from my memory
because i left a little bit of home in you
right between the forest of your eyebrows
when everyone warned me to never make a home of a human
Nov 2016 · 443
this is you being brave
Keah Jones Nov 2016
i want you to remember this is you being brave
this is you trying not to carve her name into your skin to see the blood
to make the pain visible
Keah Jones Nov 2016
day one: you asked me if i was okay as i tried to hide the tears that were spilling down my face. i looked at you and my heart stopped right there and whispered, "hello old friend, I've been waiting for you"

day two: i woke up to a good morning text. i knew this was the beginning.

day three: we threw rocks in the river and you laughed as i slipped off my shoes in the dark and waded into the ice cold water. i told you how it made me feel alive to have it biting at my skin

day four: you told me it was a bad idea, that we weren't allowed to do this as your kisses led there way from the nape of my neck to the horizon of my lips

day five: i realized how beautiful you were when you spoke about the things you loved, how your smile threatened to consume your whole face.  but i also realized how beautiful you looked when you talked about the things that hurt, the things that you would never forget no matter how hard you tried

day six: i thought i would know you forever, in whatever sense that meant, i thought you would stick around. i realized how delusional this sounded after six days of knowing you. but you said you would stay.

day seven: the urge took over and i gave it all to you. every secret my body held, the words spilling off my tongue and into the space between us like a waterfall. like i said the urge took over and i gave it all to you.

day eight: you didn't value me enough to even whisper an explanation.

day nine: we were a story cut off mid sentence. with no happily ever af....
Keah Jones Nov 2016
you locked me away with my loneliness
took my hope and shattered it to pieces
ate my love
****** it out of me like a vortex

it was not for you
it was not yours to take

you threw my trust into the abyss

it was not for you
it was not yours to take

help me
he hurt me
your lips left a black and blue necklace
i didn't ask for you
for it

you did not conquer this body

it was not for you
it was not yours to take

this loneliness is withering me away
you are a beast

this body never belonged to you
and it never will because

it was not for you
it was not yours to take
written years ago, not current, trigger warning
Nov 2016 · 698
drinking poison
Keah Jones Nov 2016
I've been drinking bleach lately to rid you of this body
drinking cocktails of clorox and ammonia to scorch you from my insides
you are like a stain that won't be scrubbed out
you left this canvas so ***** that there is no hope that it will ever be white and innocent ever again
Nov 2016 · 486
I really did try
Keah Jones Nov 2016
you know i tried
right?
i tried to love you back
to love you the way you loved me
like i was the very air surrounding your being
but i couldn't
and so i left
i tiptoed out the backdoor and never looked back
Nov 2016 · 416
deserving of something vast
Keah Jones Nov 2016
i heard someone say that nothing vast enters our lives without ruin and so here i am ruined waiting for something vast to happen
Nov 2016 · 327
constructed scenarios
Keah Jones Nov 2016
I've constructed all these scenarios in my mind that make it my fault why you left
but each one ends in false contradictions
you did have a valid reason
i just didn't want to hear it because it broke my heart

and i asked you what you would do if i never spoke to you again
as we were laying in bed morphed together into one being
and you simply said
"i would move on"
those words made me retract into the being i had just hatched from
because i had contorted my mind into thinking this was something that neither of us would just be able to "move on" from

it turns out it was just me
and you are the one that stopped talking to me
now i have to figure out how to live your words
we both know my answer wouldn't have been so simple
Nov 2016 · 579
you're fading away
Keah Jones Nov 2016
as the hickies slowly faded so did the memory of you
as the red turned purple against my skin your smile began to float away

how perfect it was
teeth aligned just so
fighting with your lips to be seen

and don’t get me started on your lips
they tasted like home
they were two glowing embers
and when I pressed mine to them they ignited into the most glorious of flames

and don’t get me started on your eyes
burning holes in my soul with your stare
you looked through me like I was transparent and had nothing to hide

then there were your hands
a godly creation
making me feel electric and alive at the slightest touch

as the hickies slowly faded so did these memories of you
as purple turned back to flesh against my skin your smile began to float away
Oct 2016 · 362
my heart's in your hands
Keah Jones Oct 2016
i never thought hands could be so beautiful
calloused and strong
glazing over my skin
you told me no girl has ever wanted to hold them
and i think when there are so many fragile things in the world
hands like that are a novelty
hold my heart in them
tame its beating
show it the value of being touched
Oct 2016 · 619
growing light
Keah Jones Oct 2016
Fly over me phoenix
fly
love me tulip
let me grow through the dirt and soil my petals
reaching my buds to the sky
offering my leaves to grow

sun warm me
warm me
call my name
feed me with your rays
and fill me with your light
Oct 2016 · 283
moving on
Keah Jones Oct 2016
nobody tells you what it feels like to move on
they don’t tell you that the first time you kiss another boy your body will become electric
that your heart will threaten your rib cage
that your life will feel likes everything is starting and ending all at once
Oct 2016 · 684
midnight memories
Keah Jones Oct 2016
one day you will regret watching her walk away
you will remember her as the girl who loved you into oblivion
who withered herself away in the hopes that it would make you stay

one day the memory of her hips will begin to gnaw at your heart
the bitter cold bedsheets will eat at your bones

you will think of her when you wake in the middle of the night
because her memory has become your nightmare
Oct 2016 · 508
sunsets
Keah Jones Oct 2016
i have watched the sunset in your smile a thousand times
and i have watched it set a thousand and one
because the last time i saw you was the last time the sun set and i haven't seen it since
Oct 2016 · 658
electricity
Keah Jones Oct 2016
i know electricity runs through your veins
but it is time to flip the breaker and let the lights fade
Oct 2016 · 845
devoured
Keah Jones Oct 2016
the way he rolled his cigarettes was godly
and i know baby that you miss how he tastes of smoke and loneliness
and i know that you miss breathing in his aroma of stale coffee and sweat

you told me about how his hands caressed you like you were a whisper
and how he bit into your skin like you were something to be devoured
Sep 2016 · 202
Untitled
Keah Jones Sep 2016
let him go sweetheart
Keah Jones Sep 2016
one day it will all make sense
it will make sense why i cry tears of a phoenix that seem to fix everyone but me
why i breathe fire and scorch everything i touch
why i have to be locked away in order to one day be lovable and suitable for this world
this world that is trying to destroy me as i stand by submitting myself to its wrath
Keah Jones Sep 2016
the obvious: how to love someone

how to keep your hands from shaking when the boy you like asks you to dance at your first school dance

how to hold shut the dam of tears that are threatening when you see your crush kiss your best friend

how to hold your head up when your world is crashing waves straight to your heart

how to wait patiently when all you can think about is that text you are hoping to get at 2 a.m.

how to react when he touches you for the first time, and goosebumps scatter across your skin or how it feels when he kisses

how to recognize the ones that will call from the ones that won't

how to walk away from someone you once loved more than yourself

how to grow up when the world seems like it's against you at every turn
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