Being alone doesn't make you lonely.
Sometimes you can be lonely even with
people around you.
So its okay to be alone.
Focus on what's left
Not what's gone.

And you are gone.

So what's the difference really? Being
Alone or lonely
when either way it's without you.

And you are gone.

First
Always the first hey
Never the first goodbye
Always the desperate one
But always the happy one
If
If only
You knew who really
Gave me joy
Because he used to be you

I haven't been myself.
I haven't bled in two months.
I haven't wrote in over a month.
I haven't exercised in three weeks.
I haven't picked up a book in two weeks.
I haven't had a panic attack in five days.
I haven't slept in three days.
I haven't cried in two days.
I haven't missed you in...

And you
You don’t listen
You just wait for me to stop talking
And I keep on giving
And you keep on taking
And it’s draining
I hate you for it
But I hate me more
Because I let you take
And I keep giving
And it never ends
This thing that we’re living

i thought the braces would have stopped those people from talking
i thought starving myself would have made me feel good
i thought ripping open my veins would take away all of the pain
i thought boyfriends were supposed to compliment you
i thought my parents would be proud of me

maybe one day when my hair falls perfectly and my thighs don't touch
i won't think as much