You know, some people told me that I liked to attract attention at the time, and it was true.
I was a beggar for love
Cos I didn't have enough people who loved me for who I was
Sometimes I thought people loved me but they just wanted to **** me
So I was disgusted by everyone
Until I got my cat Oslo
I really knew what unconditional love was
Oslo is my second son
And then I had Liam too, these two 'people' changed my life and made me realise that I don't need anyone any more because I have them.
Today I'm attracting tension, but I'm not doing it on purpose
lots of people love me
I needed you before, I would have felt stronger and more supported, but I love you all the same
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Today, I feel like a diamond in a box
I just want to be left in my box
To live my life as a film
I no longer want to think and relive those traumatic years
I'm sorry if I'm sometimes ****** in my words
But anger wins out but all these emotions are artistic
They're things I write on the spur of the moment
I try not to re-read them generally, otherwise I usually delete them
I feel ashamed sometimes
But I'm less ashamed today
I'm really starting not to care what people think of me
I'm a ball of energy and that's all part of my bipolar disorder, so to stay off medication I have to manage to tire myself out, move from town to town, write down everything that comes into my head, manage my emotions, life isn't always easy, I don't have a perfect life
I have haters, everyone has haters
Nobody's perfect
But I pay more attention to what people say
I say what I think loud and clear
And **** those who aren't happy
All you have to do is click "unfollow" π
But know that your life won't be as bright without me