In my possession is an armor,
Forged within my mind,
And greater than anything  of steel
My words.

Look up at the ground
Fall upon the stars

Dream with me
Dream to be

Set sail to the open sky
The great kingdom is nigh

Dream with me
Dream to see

Catch a falling cloud
Come back safe and sound

And dream with me
Right next to me.

I cant see to write. My tears have blurred my vision and the paper is soaked.

I see a pattern of you choosing him over me time and time again and yet its always me you come running to with tears streaming down your face.

tonight is one of those nights
where the music isn't loud enough
to drown out your noisy thoughts;
where even your favourite book
doesn't bring you comfort

tonight is one of those nights
that i'm fighting to stay afloat,
but i am drowning deeper and deeper
and i long to breathe

they say love is
butterflies in your stomach,
fluttering heart when you see him,
smiling uncontrollably for no reason,
feeling safe in his arms

but today i witnessed her break down,
wailing out loud uncontrollably,
her shoulders shaking from sobbing so hard,
lips quivering with effort to stop crying

the light that was once in her eyes dimmed
now replaced with the look of utter betrayal
of all the lies and broken promises.
she speaks of suicide
in such a broken tone i never heard before
it scares me

it's hard to believe
the now tear-stained cheeks
were once glowing radiantly
it breaks my heart
to see the once cheerful girl
being shattered into pieces

when you tell me Im okay.
And that i'll be better soon,
All the hope fades away
Because I dont feel better at all
I feel so much worse
Nothing can help me now
I am always broken
Glue wont keep the water behind the dam.
The water always finds a way in.

I hate your hugs.
Because when im okay all day long.
Feeling so proud of myself.
Evading my own terrors.
You bring them back.
Why does nothing help anymore?
Why do I feel so sad?
Am I so unfixable?