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Jessy Dec 2017
I used to imagine people who self-harmed
as crazy people
"you're making yourself bleed?"
"you purposely put yourself in pain?"
I used to ask

I would cringe
thinking about it

who knew a few years later
that would be me?
who knew that would be me
making myself bleed?
who knew that would be me
putting myself in pain on purpose?

who ******* knew?
Jessy Apr 2018
a lot can happen in
f i f t e e n  d a y s

you could go on a vacation
you could get married
you could give birth
you could buy a house
you could get a new job
you could make a new friend

there's so much you can do in
f i f t e e n  d a y s

what did I do in those fifteen days?
I tried to take away my next fifteen days
and all of them thereafter.
Jessy Dec 2017
is life even worth living?
because i can’t name a single reason to live
but I can name a thousand reasons to die
Jessy Feb 2018
I don’t want to be loved
I don’t deserve it
Because all I will do
Is bring them down with me
So instead
I will live angry
Angry that I can’t be loved
Angry that I don’t deserve love
Angry that I am unlovable
Angry that the world is against me
Angry at everybody
Angry at myself
Angry
You
Jessy Feb 2018
You
I loved
You
With everything I had but
You
Couldn’t even look me
In the eye
And tell me
You
Didn’t feel the same, instead
You
Cheated and lied
You
Led me on
You
Let me love
You
Until I was nothing

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