My dearest daughter I know it hurts
When he comes home late and bangs at the door
You mustn’t fear what he will do
Because you are the strongest soldier
In this war of life

I can hear the way you cry at night
My tears fled from my eyes the same way
When the nightmare ended and I could sleep
To prepare for another day at the front

I can see the blood and bruises
That escapes from your small fragile body
I know it hurts when he hits and kicks
I was once the victim of his lustful hate and anger



Get into bed my daughter
He’s almost home
He nursed a bottle of gin all night long
Enraged and drunk, a terror to us all
But don’t worry dear daughter
Just crawl inside the wall

Lift the vent so he can’t see
That you’re here tonight
And not yet asleep
Don’t worry my love he can’t get you then
I wish I had known these hiding spots
When daddy came home past ten

He is here my sweet child
Don’t make a sound
He’s angry and loud and ready to pound
I remember the nights when he was out of control
And no one listened to the screams that escaped my mouth

My little one do you know why I’m not there?
Daddy hurt me the same way he hurts you
It’s a sad story
But no one seems to care
Hush my dearest he’s found you now
Run and scream to draw a crowd

I’m sorry my dear that no one cares
When you call for help with no response
Don’t be afraid my sweetheart
There’s no need to cry
Because you are in my arms tonight

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\\  \                         //  //
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\\\   all night long   ////
I've tossed and turned
been ((●)) sad and ((●)) blue
the candle's \\/// burned/just
because I'm here alone/and
there's nobody on the phone
please, my love, come here
to me/by your side's where I
should be/can you help me? do you
care? please don't give me that blank
stare/I'm not just blue, I'm also bored
twisting up the telephone cord/please
my love, it's almost dawn/all you do is
blink and yawn/are you tired of me
now? If I can change, please show
me how! there are no stars in
your eyes/you lost the love
there's no disguise
■■■■■■■■■((■■■■■■))■■■■■■■■■
there's no disguise
I've lost you now
I want you back
I don't know how
I'd be good/forever
true/ don't give me
that. you know "who!"


SoulSurvivor
(C) 12/16/2015

i am 18 years old and i've kissed 17 boys. i've passed 16 classes, and cried at school 15 times. sophomore year i missed 14 days of school. i've figured out 13 ways to say "i didn't do my homework," and i am halfway through the 12th grade. my longest relationship lasted 11 months. i once left a picture up for 10 minutes, and received 9 comments about how unacceptable my shirt was. i have gone through 8 best friends and 7 phones. i've gotten lost on the road 6 times and i have 5 friends i plan to keep in touch with for the rest of my life. at my first job, i made $4 an hour. i've fallen in love 3 times, i've seen two therapists and i'm still holding on to this one thought that everything is going to be okay.
everything is going to be okay.

Every morning at 9
She puts on the
banker's disguise
puts her poetry
in a sacred jar
next to the ashes
of
her husband
her dad
her mom.

She's a river of currents
behind the smile
darkly ******
phantasims
fly and flower

She not only carries
the keys to the vaults,
but also
the keys to wisdom
sublime
She can see right through you
when
she wants to
She can read your mind

Smilies
Metaphors
Haikus
Rap
Manifestations
of
all that makes us human,
These are the currents she rides
while
she
files
e-mails
signs
floats loans
defaults
default swaps

The whole time
she's got on
John Prine's illegal smile

She's watching secret movies
inside
she's alive.

It took many years
to learn to hide
the images
the colors
thought dreams
which flow inside -
while in meetings
behind her eyes
flows
the poetry
from herself, she cannot hide.

The commute ends
The day ends
She unscrews the sacred jar
pen to paper
the currency of poetry
resurrected
she comes alive,
All disguises
hide.