We fell in love by chance,
We stay in love by choice.

BOYFRIEND/SIGNIFICANT OTHER

-REQUIREMENTS:
-must be from 15 to 19
-must not be a hick
-must not be an *******
-must be sweet but also have a backbone
-must be able to handle crazy
-probably should be crazy
-must want something real
-must have a sense of humor
-must watch cartoons
-must be loyal
-must not be aggressive
-must want true love

                 -future gf

I’m nothing special
I could easily be a millionaire before 30
I have faced no true adversity
Despite my everyday struggles

I have no backstory
I have no PAIN
I feel nothing
To my sin I am enslaved

I go to church
And I have a nice truck
I have everything set before me
Success is within my grasp

I am not worthy to be here
I am the ultimate grey man
I’m white and straight
The image of evil to fools

Anxiety
It's there when I eat
And it's right next to me when I fall asleep
It's there when I'm walking
And it's leaning over my shoulders when I cry
I've learnt to live this way
The crippling fear of being alive has consumed me
It's always there
It graps me, pulls me in, leans over for a kiss, but puts a knife right through my back
I can still taste the fear on my lips as I go down on my knees
I never went this low to the ground
I feel dizzy as I try to pull myself up
But it keeps on pushing me back
I will never get up
Anxiety

Procrastination,
A lazy man's tool,
Cluttered bedrooms and takeaway food.
Every day tasks,
Now that's a situation
Sleeping in until your own damnation.

Waking and baking,
The day goes up in a blaze
Calling in sick to work,
But you are faking.
Trapped in a haze,
Stuck in my old ways,
A lonely stoner in the making.