It's okay
If you want to cut me out
From your life

I meant
To tell you sooner
But couldn't find the words

You probably see us
As too close for comfort
Now

I guess it'll be better
If we go
Our separate ways

It wasn't meant
To be
Was it?

You paint your
Skin with false
Perfections

Hiding the marks
That you think
Are flaws

But I think
There's no need
To paint your skin

Because those "flaws"
Make you beautiful

You're clingy
And so am I

We both attach ourselves to others
Unknowingly
Becoming more of a part in their lives
Than they are in ours

Getting hung up over losing friends
While just finding each other

So let's cling together
And mend those wounds from the past
And make THIS friendship
*last

Why is it
That
The more attached I get
To someone
The more it hurts

Like a dagger
That enters me when we meet
And digs its self
Deeper
The more I fall in love

Pulling it out
Would **** me to try
So I keep it in
Though the pain
Makes me cry

My reasoning screams to let go
Of this attachment
But it's just in too deep

Do I keep
It in
Or do I pull it out
And let my reasoning win

I read it somewhere that they say
If a man can be stolen let her keep him
A real man stands for what he loves
A real man doesn't let go
Not even when it seems impossible
Even though it hurts
Even though it's hard
A real man knows what he has in his heart

1: My face is disproportional to the rest of me
It looks so uncomfortable sitting on my shoulders
Like it's a holder for the weight of the world

#2: My eyes show too much expression
They cannot lie
Even in moments of severe desperation
When lying that no, I am not about to cry

#3: My words are always awkward
Especially when spoken
They convey the notion of stupidity
When that's not true in reality

#4: My inability to cope with any stressful circumstance
Always retreating
Always receding
Instead of seeking out help

#5: My self hate
My inability to love who I am
The constant wish that I was someone
Who can
Love themselves with their entire heart
And not be dragged into this never ending dark
Of despising yourself
But blaming everyone else

I wonder if you’d want to know
I named all of my demons after you and
they haunt me in my sleep

when I was 14 I fell asleep in April and dreamed of bones and
I’m not sure I’ve really ever woken up since

when I lost 5 pounds I never saw a difference

when I lost 10 my mother said I was looking good

when I lost 20 she told me to stop and handed me food
and I became anemic

when I lost 25 I stopped drinking anything because
I felt water had calories

when I lost 30 my mother held me on her lap
and held my bones together for me

when I lost 35 I started fainting every morning and
the doctors could no longer easily find my blood pressure

when I lost 40 people started to stare and food made me cry

when I lost 45 it hurt to walk and to lay down
it hurt to eat
it hurt to breathe and
I started throwing up my empty stomach

the mind plays tricks on those that decide
nourishment is not needed

Eat.

Stronger than waves crashing
Stronger than stone
Stronger than the stars that light
up the sky
Cataclysmic volcanic energy
is your might
Your strength to lead us
just as strong
As was your strength to decide
to willingly give
up your human existence
Providing us
Hope for everlasting life