insensivel

Jul 2015

Chelle captured

Some people will say its a weakness,
But in reality it is not.
Sadness is very powerful, empowering.

It's easy to tap Into.
Into a depth no other energy would travel.
To some its a drug. Addicted to the suffering.

The high after the weep,
It's all energy focused through perspective.
It makes you think. It makes you feel.
The level. Perceptive. Respective.

What other feeling can inspire, yet be named weakness?
Sadness is powerful and create change.

So embrace it. Use it. Love it if its all you think you have.
Because after the tears, think back, there's always a sense of relief,

After the weep.

Sadness isn't always sad.

Jul 2015

its gonna make sense

Rain

i wish
i were as brave as the rain
because
they are not afraid to
fall

©IGMS

when there is no one there to catch them...

they are the strongest, bravest and
saddest things I've known :(

PS:
-the thought "the rain are not afraid to fall" were not from me . :)

#broken #rain #hurt #bleed

Jul 2015

grace

breathe it

sometimes
my life feels like chaos
I can't feel my body
I can't hear my own thoughts
and I come back to myself in horror
because I've lost it all

life works slowly
everything feels like a puzzle
being put together
I'm beginning to feel more complete
I'm beginning to see myself clearer
seeing myself as a work of art
a human being
not a human doing

clarity comes to me
like a gust of wind
rushing through my hair

like being in the ocean
and swimming towards the sky
my lungs have hurt
from holding my breath for so long
but I see the light through the surface of the water
and you can bet your *** that when I reach the top
I'll take the grandest gasp of air
anyone has ever taken in
and it will be beautiful
I'll laugh like a child
I'll laugh beautiful exhaustion
I'll laugh because I will feel
I'll laugh because I will feel so alive
I'll laugh because I'm glad I am

Jul 2015

tranquil

.

People who fight
their battles alone
either lose the battle
or lose themselves.

insensivel Jul 2015

Sickness

The problem was that I was sick and nobody even noticed
I was sticking a tooth brush down my throat to dispose of extra calories
then I'd slice my wrist in shame because I had no self control
I wore nothing but long sleeves even if it was 70 degrees out
I was sick
but my grades never slipped
I always smiled
and I never caused any trouble
and when people found out my parents had the audacity to tell me
it was " just a phase "
even when the night before I almost swollowed two bottles of Advil

#suicide #depression

insensivel Jul 2015

security

Security is elusive
Its impossible because in the end we all die
we all get old, all of us
we all get sick and people leave us
people changes us but that's because
nothing in life is secure
maybe except death

#life #secure #security

insensivel Jul 2015

Rocky

Life to me was made up of days where we could experience
the highest of highs and the lowest of lows
only if we were lucky enough

Now if we weren't lucky, we would be stuck somewhere inbetween
that was what the majority of the world was
this was what the majority of the world spent their daily lives
stuck in the between of highs and lows, that part flattened out
in the middle and didn't feel anything
all they ever felt was gray

#sad #life #no #inbetween