how sorry can you really be
not enough to satiate me
if it is all just an act
be sure to make it persuading
and make it fast
you know i hate waiting

if you really didn't mean it
why did you even do it
accepting your apology
will make me seem weak and stupid
i'm guaranteed safe keeping
if i stay secluded

you're not really worth
dying over and over again
the necessary lies evolve
into your excuses in the end
always my biggest critic
never a true friend

unsure of who i was
but now i am proud of who i am
even if it means alone
and nobody understands
at least i know i gave
every single one of you a chance

don't make promises you won't keep
there is no way to lie to me
i know your tells and what they mean
blink or look away or forget to breathe
give away the secret subconsciously
tell me a story without ever having to speak
give away the truth without acting honesty
give me signs i can read

no one ever asked if i was okay
now its a little too late
to remedy my pain

they never cared to see my fear
missed my downfall even though they were here
tear after tear

i am all cried out at this time
keep your shoulder cause i got mine
too late for you to apologize

no one loves me
but they claim they care
if they really did wouldn't they see

i am falling apart
fragile to the touch
yet they keep on pushing me

closer to the edge
and they think i can take more
so they push farther till i'm at the brink

it's like they know i can't swim
but they are going overboard
and they'll be suprised when i sink

i don't know where to start
another blow to a broken heart
i dont want to hurt you again

oh so close but still far
loving me causes you harm
i only see you as a friend

forgive me for not feeling the same
deep down i wish it was that way
i still care about you

i want to give you joy not pain
but i only hurt you im afraid
just continuing to confuse