I patched the sky in wishes,
White birds flew by.
I prayed to rain in stitches,
Puddles bubbled alive.
I saw a lone flower drinking,
And said I see you shine.
I prayed to the stars blinking,
And offered my blood to moon.

Being indecisive makes me
Aint no telling
I stay late at night thinking about my life  
No telling
Having conversations with mama
My life is a mess, I aint been returning texts
So she’s been reading depress


Don’t ever take the vice that was great advice mama
Retired teacher but your words still got me evolving

We stopped talking about dad
That ***** still in the club
Call him after we get off the phone
And show him some love
That guy loved you to death
He made mistakes throughout his life that he still doesn’t accept
But he still wants our forgiveness
And **** look how we living
I’m content with this story
Who are we not to forgive him

Just like people,
A book without a spine
Are just sheets,
Just...sheets.

     Just like people...*

© 2015 J.S.P.

Everyday I wake up
the world is a little different
something has changed

My lover
of yesteryears
is  too boring to look at
my house feels larger
and the echoes are touting

Something's changed
so I take a bottle of beer
and Bury myself somewhere familiar

But the questions
and the exclamations
are still there

I would have travelled
across galaxies for you
buy now
your like a beautiful painting
amazing when looked at
but no idea what you mean

You said you can read what my smile says
Can you read my eyes too?
We sit in silence and I stare into your eyes
Painfully averting mine
You know what happens next and so do I
But can you read it in my eyes when they scream
I love you

I've left more than a few emotional gashes on your soul
And as you lean over crying in front of your car
I wonder if you can hear my tears fall
As my eyes beg you not to leave me,
But I'm the one who told you to go

Another day, another **** up
Weeks turn into hell and
Months breed tragedy
I'm losing it all and it's my own fault
For not stopping myself from investing my heart
Into two different, amazing people

You ask if people really do what others tell them
Yet you know I've done just that
To save a chance with someone
That possess my feelings unexplainably
You love me, you're in love with me
And I love you
But I'm lost

I can't live like this anymore
I can't handle trying to understand my feelings
When my heart is torn in two
One half is miles away,
The other is on its way,
Far far away from here

I'm sorry.

Waiting
Always waiting and I'm not sure why. Times would be better if I would just try.
I keep to myself waiting on you,
Waiting to see if you make the first move.
Waiting to see if things will change
Waiting to see if I can break from this pain.
Spend all day waiting and what did I do. Nothing at all except wait on you.
It's time to stop waiting and make the first move.  It's time to find my own personal grove.
Time to get going, time to be brave.
Time to show you all I am not afraid.
My time is now, I hope you all see it's time to stop waiting and be brave

People who fight
their battles alone
either lose the battle
or lose themselves.