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1.3k · Feb 23
Shall we?
Hamzah Feb 23
Forever is never mine
nor yours
Not even ours

For long is much more probable
Although ends are inevitable
Yet the chase is impeccable

So, shall we try?
467 · Dec 2024
So Be It
Hamzah Dec 2024
All my life,
I've been asking "why?"
Questioning things
Yet one answer remains
"So be it"
458 · Oct 2024
Sometimes
Hamzah Oct 2024
Love is sometimes near.
As near as hugs yet still trying to get closer.

Love is sometimes special.
It's discovering new things and embrace them.

Love is sometimes warm.

But some other times,
Love is far.
Sometimes it's untouchable nor reachable.
But you won't feel the distance.

Love is basic.
Sometimes it's the same old things that happen continuously.
But you cherish it anyway.

Love is cold.
Sometimes it's much colder,
And yet you can feel her warmth.

Because,
Love is there.
Every single day.
Every single night.
Every second.
Every blink of an eye.
because love contradicts
421 · Jan 23
Scenery
Hamzah Jan 23
I love the imagery
Of you sitting next to me
Close to me
Being with me

For now, I love that imagery
Unfortunately
That's all imaginary
402 · Nov 2024
Right/Left
Hamzah Nov 2024
Left to right got you.
Now read it from right to left
384 · Dec 2024
Before It Ends/Begins
Hamzah Dec 2024
So,
Thank you,
For existing.
359 · Dec 2024
Meaning
Hamzah Dec 2024
What's the meaning of deep inhale?
If the tar clings to lung while smoke exhaled
Cancerous
Yet brutally devoured like carnivorous
Venomous
Yet corroding slowly like oxidous

What's the meaning of a sip?
If the alcohol kicks in a dip
True
About being blue
Flew
Up into the sew

What's the meaning of a romance?
If memory leaves as the pain stays
Sorrow
Gone as a throw
Grow
Indisputably slow

What's the meaning of life?
If everything seen is a lie
Null
As it dull
346 · Dec 2024
Untitled Poem #7
Hamzah Dec 2024
What if we pretend, to have a goodbye we didn't had
What if for once, we stay
What if we change, the very last moment
What if we just enjoy, the last memory we had.
Hamzah Oct 2024
'1. Acquire your target, scout them for a while before you make your move.
2. Make your move, approach them blatantly and get to know them.
3. Talk to them every day, every night, or even every single time. You need to put your effort in this step.
4. Ask them about their day, about their work, about every ******* single thing that come up to your mind.
5. Open up to them. So that they can open up to you.
6. Open up more, about every childhood trauma, family-related stuff, about past relationships. Open up about your past.
7. Open up more, about your plans and what ifs, about promises, about your future that you might share with them.
8. Open up more, about yourself, about how you love to hug them, how you love to spend time with them, how you.... Need them.
9. Open up more, about your true feeling towards them, about how you love their smell, their voice, their glares. About how you love them.
10. Open up more. Until you have nothing to open up.
11. Don't open up, hide something from them, lie to them if necessary. Do your best to keep those lie believable. Deny those lie when they find out. Say no to every single question they ask.
12. Open up again, about the truth. About how you felt sorry for lying to them (if it's true).
13. Open up again, about how you don't want them to go.
14. Open up again, show your vulnerability by crying out loud to make them stay.
15. Open up again, open the door so that they can leave, with their heart broken.
And probably yours too.
open up....... again.
Hamzah Dec 2024
I used to think that i know love really well.
When i try to be sweet by picking her up.

I used to think that love would cover the mistakes.
Small one, or big one if love is strong enough.

But no, mistake is a mistake. Love is love.

Love is seeing her watching movies.
Smiling and somehow trying to cuddle me.

But no, it's about listen to her words.

Love is sad when she's away.
Missing her around and sometimes call her.
Love is arguing over small things.
And laughing later on.

Love is spending time together.
Sharing poems about future.
Love is expectation. This one is pretty dangerous.

Love will sad when you used to be mad.
Love will cry when your tears dry.
Love will love when you're afraid to leave.
But love will leave when you're in love.
263 · Mar 12
MT
Hamzah Mar 12
MT
Not a single vowel,
and yet you got the idea.
261 · Nov 2024
Constant
Hamzah Nov 2024
Can people change? That's one of the hardest question I've stumbled upon.
I've seen so many people change throughout my life.
My parents, my family, my friends.
Everybody's changing.
But when i look into a mirror, i don't just see glass that reflects light.
I see such an unchanged math problem that we might known as constant.
I see, myself.

Being constant is not the same as being consistent.
It's not a wordplay that everyone could mix it up.
Those two not even homophones.
Being consistent is sometime a thing that we could be proud of.
And yet being constant is
an illness that I haven't find the cure of.

I'm not saying that it's uncurable.
What I'm saying is
I'm sick of it.
I'm sick of being an unchanged variable that doesn't know how to change.
I'm sick of being a constant that is easily scratch out in a derivative.
Who are scared of the slightest change that eliminates.
I'm sick of being a constant that is negligible during a definite integration.
Who are disposable when the such circumstances are known.

All I'm saying is,
I'm sick of being a constant.
And for now,
I want things to change.
How on earth that I'm one of the constant?
254 · Nov 2024
The Play
Hamzah Nov 2024
Act I - Prologue

When things didn't end well
They often make my eyes swell
For all the time i borrow
It mostly ended in sorrow

Act II - Different

I think it's gonna be different
How on earth that I'm one of the constant
Things should change
Else I'm the one who's derange

Act III - Constant

I was wrong
Like that one song
That's already recorded
It's unchanged

Act IV - Epilogue

I was never good at farewell
So, do tell
Come closer and speak
About the kind of ending you seek
I have a hard time thinking about the title. Please let me know if you guys have a better idea for the title.
240 · Mar 27
Hello/Goodbye
Hamzah Mar 27
Everything that starts,
Shall end.
Thus, "Hello" is just another way to say
"Goodbye"
236 · Feb 2
Unlikely
Hamzah Feb 2
Unlike life,
Love has meaning
To cherish and be cherished

Unlike life,
Love is pretty
Is the face that i long for and remember

Unlike life,
Love is colorful
Like an abstract painting that captures emotion

Unlike life,
Love is predictable
Like a terrible chess player or bad movie plot

Unlike life,
Love will stay
For as long as love would

And unlike life,
I don't want love to end
I don't want love to leave.
220 · Feb 15
Just Enough
Hamzah Feb 15
I know it's not your decision. But, thank you for coming into my dream last night. It was just enough.
I don't know if that's what i needed. To fill up this endless void. But i think it was decent. It was just enough.
I love you. But that's okay if only the image of you that loves me. At least a part of me thought. It was just enough.
I've defeated. By the slow long march of time. By the impatiency of the longing. It was just enough.
I've met you. In this hideous timing that doesn't even give a clue. It was just enough.

I know it was never your decision. But, thank you for visiting my dream last night. It was just enough.
191 · Feb 12
Untitled Poem #1
Hamzah Feb 12
I no longer think we're meant to be
You had endure enough pain before
For I, is such a melancholy
And you, might be another one i tore

So, thank you, for all the time i borrow
Time is all yours to have
Because, if i'm the god of sorrow
I apologise for the tears i gave
187 · Feb 7
Isolation
Hamzah Feb 7
By the curse of isolation condemned to me
I now pronounce you, "free"
181 · Dec 2024
Numb
Hamzah Dec 2024
I don't know what to say
Because
I don't know if i'm able to
Because
I don't know what to feel
Because
I don't know if i'm able to
Because
I don't know what to know
Because
I don't know if i'm able to
Because
I don't know
Because
I really don't know.
180 · Dec 2024
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Hamzah Dec 2024
-
Nihilism in cancerous
Mutating uncontrollably
Growing silently

But, with or without cancer
People die anyway
Whether quickly by a bullet
Or slowly by a disease
Or simply, heart choosing to rest.

Death is inevitable
Whether it chose to come suddenly
Or it's been waited patiently.
It will come.

Without caring when and how.
Whether when we're alone,
Or when love was already gone
Or leaving love alone.
It will ends.

Everything will leave,
Everything will gone,
Everything will end.
171 · Dec 2024
The Last Lie
Hamzah Dec 2024
Life once asked the death
“Why do people hate you but love me?”
She asked him curiously
“It’s simple.”
He answered.
“That’s because i’m the painful truth.
And you are the sweetest lie.”

Life was still curious
“What if there are someone who thinks that i’m the painful lie?”
She asked.
“Than, they would think that i’m the sweetest truth.”
He smiled.

I’ve been taught by my mother
That it’s much better to tell bitterest truth
Than sweetest lie.
It’s much better to be honest.

I’ve grown up and learned something
That sweet lies are things that most people seek.
They learned, they fell, they woke up and they walked
By the things that we knew as sweet lies
Life taught me so.

I’ve grown up and learned something
That most of people were frightened by the bitter truth
They know that things existed
They know that, that bitter truth would come
And they would run away, even though they couldn’t.
Death told me so.

But when life hits me hard once.
I know that beautiful lie aren’t beautiful after all.
So is life.
And that teaches me something that i believe until now.
That death is our best friend.
‘Cause he’ll come to us.
It’s just a matter of time.

I’ve been taught that it’s better to be honest.
But we live in things that contained with lie
And i’ve learned from death.
That he'll never tells the truth even though he is the truth itself.

So if you don’t understand what life is
And what death is.
You won’t be able to understand me.
Neither the words that i'll tell you.

That this might be the last lie
From all the bullcrap that spilled out from my mouth
I don’t love you anymore
And i never do.
Hamzah Nov 2024
I don't know since when you chose to leave.
What i already know is that you never accept me anyway.
But there was time when you make me feel my presence.
Not just that, but also my existence.
That one beautiful moment for me who keep coming back to you.
Or maybe i never really come into your life.
But it's okay, life is full of confusion anyway.

There are so many words i'd like to say.
But i know you'll laugh at it all the way.
Because maybe you think i'm a joker and you're one of my masterpiece.
I don't know why god made it this way.
Like a beautiful rose that filled with thorns.

It's the third time for me to let you go.
But saying "goodbye" for me is just another "hello".
Like we usually do.
Like we did it now.
169 · Nov 2024
Ouroboros
Hamzah Nov 2024
That pattern
Occurs periodically.
Despite all the vern
I still hurt myself regularly.

Those ricocheting projectiles
Travel uncontrollably.
Hitting them who smiles
Wounding them miserably.

This is not a sanctuary
Not a place to survive.
This is a void, where no one can hear me.
Screaming, "Help! I'm eating myself alive."
168 · Nov 2024
Null Set
Hamzah Nov 2024
I was once complete.
All axioms fulfilled.
All operators well-defined.
All systems consistent.

Although,
Subtracting a set by itself,
Creates
A null set.

I was once complete.
All axioms fulfilled.
All operators well-defined.
All systems consistent.

Although,
Adding a null set
To another set
Changes nothing.

I was once complete.
All axioms fulfilled.
All operators well-defined.
All systems consistent.

Although,
The completeness
Is not from myself.
It's not premade.

We were once complete.
All axioms fulfilled.
All operators well-defined.
All systems consistent.

Although,
The completeness
Has gone.
Thus, i am a null set.
166 · Nov 2024
Somnambulist' Nightmare
Hamzah Nov 2024
Is waking up,
Reality is ****** up.
163 · Feb 23
Story of Eames
Hamzah Feb 23
In this void and isolation,
Sit Eames serves his damnation,
Neigh in his ears voices of the past,
Wrought sanity in each moment that last.
Please stop!—Shout Eames with braveries,
Beneath his ceaseless reveries,
Retardation for him is inevitable,
Henceforth, numbness is insatiable.

Whilst the time lives as is,
Forsake the lunatics,
Sought means in stampede,
Mere discovers naught awaits,
Good God! Creat’d us for greed!
Forgotten the innocent without traits,
In this void and isolation,
Sit Eames serves his damnation.

Locketh every door that once unveil’d
Refuse Eames’ present as he walk’d
Thou hast no haven herein!
Spurn’d wherever he’s within.
All the doors slow gone,
Thus Eames abideth alone.

No solitude he bears,
Pure absence of any wight,
Naught but none ought to care,
Mere presence none weight.
These isolation he wish’d to end,
He no longer able to withstand;
Poisons swallow’d,
With the hope of termination of sorrow,
Yet death neglect,
To make his mind dissect.

Rest ye’ rusty ol’ fool!
The world won’t bestow you any tool!
Albeit wield’d dagger in his hand,
Pointing towards thee who abandon’d.
Thou know not the travails I hath endur’d?
Shout Eames with eyes hollow’d.
Naked knees bruised as old rag,
Due to an endless beg,
He seeks no salvation,
He seeks no redemption.

Out of the blue,
A soft hand reach’d for him,
Ask’em to grew,
From the kneel did by him.
Is shelter is what you need?—spoken voice sneek
Suddenly terminate Eames’ bleak.
As a goddess who descent,
Radiated an impeccable scent.
With the spirit to back stood,
He finally stands for good.

Why do you take a sinner’s hands?—Eames inquisitively ask’d
At what cost one died in his sins?—said the woman thought it’s her task.
Eames fallen deeper into the pit,
A sudden urge flows in his pith.
There’s a hive and there’s a home,
Yet this one freed him from his catacomb.

Days upon, the broken man bloom,
As the slow march of his gloom,
Awaken an unbeknownst mirth,
Henceforth the absent-mind rebirth.

Pray tell, what dost thou call thyself?—Eames ask’d with fervent haste,
Julia—said the woman who’s innocent and chaste.
They wander to wheresoever they might wend.
Whilst Eames wish’d it’d never end.
Deeper known he hoped to know,
About Julia, the one he thought was faux.
Enlighten me further of thyself, Julia.
Ignore and thou’rt blessed—said Julia.

His insatiable curiosity dost leadeth to his demise,
Lead to many questions arise.
Ask’d but none answer’d,
His curiosity grew as cancer.

Once upon, Julia doth unveils,
About her story and her tales.
She was wound’d like Eames.
As well she never experienc’d dreams.
That verity, left Eames dread,
Is she just a ghost he creat’d?
Delud’d with his lunacy,
In which his brain and eyes have incoherency.

Eames’s brain illuminates,
That Julia is the one he creates.
Eames sudden epiphany
Compose a hymnody
That Eames,
Is still living in his dreams.
Whilst the world keeps forgetting,
Whilst the time keeps marching,
He is still in void and isolation,
He still sits and serves his damnation.
He is still damaged
Hence, he can’t be salvaged.
153 · Nov 2024
Yeah yeah yeah, but why?
Hamzah Nov 2024
When i was 5, i've been told
I can't eat dirt
I can't touch flame
I can't see the sun directly

When i was 10, i've been told
That 10 is greater than 5
That wind is just a moving air
That ice is made from water

When i was 15, i've been told
Don't be mean to others
Don't be snob for what i have
Don't be coward for what i stand for

When i was 20, i've been told
I might be breaking someone's heart
I might become untrusted
I might be manipulative

When i was 25, i've been told
I can't change
That i am who i am now
Don't be such a ****
Else I might be alone til' the end.
All those things they said to, they never bother telling me why.
153 · Nov 2024
Dear future you
Hamzah Nov 2024
Hey, do you remember me?
The one who loves you with all his heart.

In this particular moment, I don't have the ability to see through time.
So I don't know what us look like in your time.

If something good happens, then I'd still be by your side. Hug you tight and kiss your face. And everything will be all alright.

But if the future isn't as good as i thought it will, i want you to know some things. Or if i have ever tell you those things, i want you to remember.

Right now, at the moment i wrote this, you are the most beautiful woman i see. Your outer and inner beauty radiates so that i can feel it all the time.
I am so in love with you.
I can't never stand the idea of you leaving.
Nor the idea of leaving you.

I feel loved by your existence.
I feel loved by every words you gave,
By the gentle movement of your hand brushing up my hair.
By every single second you hold my hand.
Every hugs, every kiss, every love words, every gaze. Everything.

Right now, i don't care about what might happen.
I don't care about what future might bring.
I love you.
At this moment, I love you and i'm in love with you.
In the next 5 seconds, I still love you and i'm still in love with you.
In the next 5 minutes, I still love you and i'm still in love with you.
In the next 5 hours, I still love you and i'm still in love with you.
In the next 5 days, I still love you and i'm still in love with you.
In the next 5 weeks, I still love you and i'm still in love with you.
In the next 5 month, I might still love you and maybe i'm still in love with you.
In the next 5 years, god i hope i still love you and still in love with you.
In the next 5 decades, please, i really wish i'd still be in love with you.
Because loving you, is the best thing i ever had in my life. And i hope it will last throughout my life.

If things went well between us, then i'd still be loving you the way i love you now. Or maybe even more.
But if things didn't end well, then i probably still be loving you this way. I'd be out there and probably waiting. Because i know/wish, we'll end up together.
Or else, I'll be in a deep misery.
147 · Nov 2024
The Perks of Loving Me
Hamzah Nov 2024
You know what you really want, when you seek for love. Attention, affection, affirmation, etc. You know you'll get it, if you choose to love me. It might sounds like my ego or my narcissistic side. But it might be true.

It might seems like a tinder profile. But here is a list of things you'll get from dating me:

1. When you choose to love me, you'll get a complete package of a drama movie. You'll get joy, sweet words, happiness, and of course, love. But you'll also get tears, anger, disappointment, and it could end up in a broken heart. So you have to be ready.

2. When you choose to love me, you have to be prepared to listen all of my what ifs and dreams. You have to be prepared for living on a prayer because i'm so ******* good at being patient and grateful.

3. When you choose to love me, you'll learn an interesting things about me. But you have to know that i'm the only one who think it's interesting. Others just think it's madness and messed up.

4. When you choose to love me, you have to learn to handle me at my worst. You have to be mature enough to admit that you're sorry. Because i definitely won't be afraid to do so.

5. When you choose to love me, you have to take down my ego. Then, you can easily conquer me.

6. When you choose to love me, you have to be a home.

When you choose to love me, you'll get everything you ever dream of. But baby, let me tell you something. I'm a comfort zone that you really have to be brave to step out of it. I'm a short escape from reality that you always seek. I'm a sweetest dream you'll ever get but **** they were always right about waking up.
All i'm saying is, don't.
145 · Nov 2024
The Arsonist Playbook
Hamzah Nov 2024
All the sparks and heat that i'm excited about,
All those adrenalins that rush,
All those fires i ignite,

For the sake of pleasure,
For mere instantaneous joy,
For a relief i never thought i seek.

I never meant to hurt anyone,
I never meant to burn anything precious,
I never want to

Yet, all those ignitions,
Are long overdue.
For once, i burned my home down.
Hamzah Nov 2024
Alright kids, let me tell you a bed time story.
This is a story about love.
About falling in love in first sight.
About how true it is.

Chapter 1.
The love of my brief life.

There was a girl. Her name reminds me of flower.
Every morning she blooms and radiate a good scent that boost my serotonin up.
Some part of me said, "i need to pick that flower"
And so i did.

Days after days, that flower become prettier.
I fell in love.

The more i know about her, the more i fall in love.
Her scent might be temporary, but the rotten things she keeps, they intrigued me.
So i studied about her.
The flower that blooms.
I studied her until it eventually wilted.

Chapter 2.
The rebound that last longer than i think it will.

This one is about a girl that her name sounds like sun.
She rises, give lights to dark edges of earth that might not want to get up.
She shines, give lives for those who needed her while exposing all the sad faces out.
She is warm.

But not for a long time.
Until clouds take her lights away from me.

She fell in love with the cloud.
While I, dropped in tears.
Crying about the dead flower.

Chapter 3.
The hope.

This one, is about goddess.
Giving me shade to hide from the sun and clouds.
Giving me something to lean on when i'm down.
Giving me hope.
That she can grow as many flowers i want.
Or as many suns i needed.

Just like actual goddess,
She give me strength.

Chapter 4.
The truth.

Kids, this one is about me.
This is about me ******* everythings up.
I might/might not ******* this one.
But let me tell you the truth, kids.

This is not a story about how i met your mother,
This is a story how every one of them is almost become your mother.
This is a story how i shouldn't end up alone while in fact i might.
This is a story about you guys, might not be exist.
This is a story about me, crying in my own funeral while burying myself and giving myself an eulogy.
This is a story about how i almost complete.
And yet, i might/might not ***** up right before the finish line.

So kids, if you ever exist, let me tell you something.
All of that stories are true loves.
But, you can't fake a true love, no matter how true it is.
You can't trust anyone just like you can't trust your heart.
In fact, you can't trust me either,
I'm the one who speaking with the non-existent.
Maybe i'm rumbling
Or God knows,
Maybe i'm talking to the future.
Can we really fake a true love?
140 · Dec 2024
Comatose
Hamzah Dec 2024
I've been numb enough for long enough
To realise that i'm trapped in a void.

Like a comatose, my body functions
Yet, i can't speak
Mouth mumbling trying to make a sound
I can't see
Eyes wide shut
I can't feel
Heart beats just because

Like a comatose, i can't escape
So many way out, yet my body resist.
Options exist, yet nothing matters.
Not even matter matters
Not even your matters matter.
It doesn't matter.
It never matter.
138 · Mar 18
Re•
Hamzah Mar 18
Oh no no no,
Don't get me wrong
I don't love you,
and never will.

If that's what it takes to be with you
Then, I will never love you
in every way that you would probably love.
in every way possible.

Oh no no no,
I can look you dead in the eye and say that
I don't love you
and never will.

If that's what it takes to look you in the eye
Then, I will never love you
in days and nights
in loneliness or in presence

Oh no no no,
There are no single statement that's true
That I don't love you,
and never will.

If that's what it takes to love you,
If loving you means stop loving you,
If loving you means not loving you they way it supposed to
Then, i don't love you
and never will
130 · Dec 2024
Lake of Memories
Hamzah Dec 2024
How funny it is to remember
How a tree lives its life to the fullest
Ended up as a log for me to sit

All of its memories vanish as it is
Like nothing ever happened
Nor ever exist.

The lake of memories
Got its name from its lack of memories
Just a massive crater for water to fill.

The memory-less water
That shaped accordingly to its vessel
Its memory lost as soon as it's transferred.

I wish they have that memory
I wish they realise that their memory lost
That their memories
Did matter.

I wish i didn't have the memory
To remember that memory
will gone eventually
Whether fading out slowly
Or lost instantaneously.

I wish i didn't have that memory
I wish i didn't realise that my memory lost
That my memory
Didn't matter.
129 · Dec 2024
Insomniac
Hamzah Dec 2024
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I thought i was done
Having a pillow talk
With my own thoughts

This conversation is end-to-end encrypted
But why does it only have one end?
I thought i was done

I thought
I finally
be able to get some sleep
I thought i no longer needed to be sedated
Although, the sedation needs me to be inhaled.

I thought i can end this episode
Beautifully written as a good romance
I thought it was done.
I thought i was done!

I thought
I thought
I thought
I already had too much to thought
Try reading only the **bold** part out loud
123 · Mar 13
Stranger
Hamzah Mar 13
There's a strange man staring blankly at me.
With black circles around his eyes,
Pale skin, messy hair, and doesn't look well-groomed.
His skinny body covered in a bad fashion-sense.
He looks daunting.
Nay, he looks into nothing.

There's a strange man staring blankly at me.
An unfamiliar face i never saw before,
Dark brown iris surrounded by stained white around it.
He's just looking at me, i'm not even sure what he wants.
Does he need help?
Does he do that just because?

There's a strange man staring blankly at me.
Cold, like a rifle barrel in a gun point.
Sharp, like a 5.56 millimeter waiting to be fired.
And yet his eyes, doesn't spark anything.
His face is flat and emotionless.
No intention to kills but showing no mercy.

There's a strange man
Lives in my mirror.
120 · Feb 15
Untitled Poem #9
Hamzah Feb 15
Unless you are a twin, you were born alone.
Unless you are an ant, you live alone.
Unless you are a soldier, you'll die alone.
119 · Jan 23
Untitled
Hamzah Jan 23
It's suffocating to think
That saying "hello" will end up in a farewell.
118 · Mar 9
Just Maybe
Hamzah Mar 9
I don't know if i'd still be exist. Next time, maybe there'll be no next time. I don't know if it'll be a lost of opportunity or it is simply simplicity.

The truth is, i'm as clueless as dementia. It feels like i'm so close to forgetting who i am. I don't know you, yet i know you better than i know myself right now.

Insomnia was my late night snack i often enjoy. Now it feels empty. Like a broken bucket that can't be filled, it will always be empty. I don't know if you took something as you leave, i feel like i'm losing something. No, i don't think it's my sanity. Or maybe it is, because in my broken head live the idea of you never leave. Although in my broken heart, i know you were never here anyway. They conflict. They contradict. They sick.

Now, everything that happened are simply. I don't want to overthink things, yet i'm thinking about it overly. The fact that you said "maybe". I know it was just maybe.
For me, "maybe" means that there are possibility.
Or maybe, "maybe" means just maybe. I don't know if you're talking literally or hypothetically.
In my broken head, there's hope. In my broken heart, there's a shout to stop.
I don't know. I'm as clueless as dementia.

The truth is, i'm not just wishing you were here. I wish you wish i was there. Because maybe, if you wished that, i'll make it true. Truer than you. But maybe, just maybe, hypothetically, beside you is where i'll be. If your wish really is the same as me.
But i know, maybe is just maybe. Or maybe it's probably?
I don't know. I'm as clueless as dementia.
115 · Dec 2024
Rhymes
Hamzah Dec 2024
Need
Is a strong 4-letter word.
So is love.
Like homophones, those two easily mixed up.
Sometimes those two rhymes.
111 · Dec 2024
False Positive
Hamzah Dec 2024
Hope is not an assumption
Hope is not derived from a deduction
Hope is never an expectation
Hope is always a superstition.
109 · Apr 2
Least Action Principle
Hamzah Apr 2
Regret? Why should i?
There's nothing to regret. Everything happens for a reason.

In physics every particle in motion follows a single principle.
That principle states that a trajectory of a motion only happens in the minimum action possible.
That explains why apple falls in a straight lines, while lightning bolt moves in a zig-zag. Some might said it was meant to be. I said, it's the least action principle.

We are particles in motions. Our conscience appears because of that principle.
Brain communicates using an electric charge carried by a particle called electron. And guess what? Electrons are particles.

We are just bunch of moving particles. Following a principle called the least action principle.
We are particles in motions. We always move with the minimum action possible.
Whether we liked it
or not.

So, indeed it is. Everything is indeed happen for a reason. To spend the minimum action.
That's why we're in love. Because at that moment that's the least action possible.
That's why we're left alone. Because that's the least action possible.
That's why we fall. Because that's the least action possible.
That's why we're trying to get back up. Because that's the least action possible.
That's why we gave up. Because that's the least action possible.
That's why,
we are the way we are.

So why should we regret? We spend the least action possible.
Unless, the least action possible is by regretting.
Unless, the least action possible is to stop moving.
108 · Feb 23
February 22nd
Hamzah Feb 23
I wish time stops at 2 a.m.
I wish earth doesn't have to rotate
and give new hope to those who's in grievance.

I wish time stops at 2 a.m.
I wish sun doesn't have to rise
and shine the new faces i barely recognize.

I wish time stops at 2 a.m.
I wish day doesn't have to change
and stuck in the same moment when we're together

I wish i didn't realize
That "morning"
is just mourning without u
108 · Jan 24
Superpower
Hamzah Jan 24
I just figured something out,
That i have a superpower that no one has
Is to summon anyone from anywhere in the world

Not by warping space-time continuum and portal,
Nor disintegrating and reintegrate their matters and teleport.

Not even by persuading talks to make them come
But by perturbing thoughts that i simply can't be alone.
Polluting my mind with the idea of their presence,
Corroding my sanity at will to reject their absence.

It might sounds like an illusion
But those imagery have diluted to reality.
I refuse to believe that it is a delusion
My brain simply suffused with such ability.
105 · Feb 15
Untitled Poem #6
Hamzah Feb 15
I don't want to throw away your toothbrush
Because I don't want mine to feel as lonely as i am.
103 · Apr 1
Last Night
Hamzah Apr 1
I dreamt about you last night
Well, not about you technically.
It's about my life
Without you in it.
My life
With zero sign of your existence

It felt real,
Every inch square of your skin
                                I didn't touch
Each expression in your face
                                 I didn't see
Every moment in time that
       I didn't spend with you
Each memory
We never made

I had a dream last night
A glimpse of life without you in it
                         And
As i woke up
I realized,
It was just called yesterday
And today, i have to experience it
Again
And again
                        Everyday
94 · Feb 14
February 14th
Hamzah Feb 14
Just another day, another night
Without your present presence
I don't know if I might
But I crave for pleasance

Just another minute, another second
Another sleepless in Seattle
Watching the sky leaden
On the very top of Babel

Just another time, another moment
Without understanding one another
Talk but lost in translation
Sorry for being such a bother
93 · Jan 18
Two
Hamzah Jan 18
Two
Am i going mental?
Why do i keep talking to a brick wall?
Am i going superstitious?
Why do i try to communicate with a ghost?
Am i losing my mind?
Why do i chase pavement?
Am i losing my sense?
Why do i seek non-existence?

Am i?
Am i?
Am i?
Am i writing a poem?
Or am i talking to myself?
Or am i?
Or,
Please stop this noise
Please stop before it's too late
Or,
Is it already too late?

You are too late!
You spineless indecisive ****!
You already talking to yourself!
I'm not a noise!
I can't be stopped!
Introducing Hans Friedrich
91 · Dec 2024
Wounded
Hamzah Dec 2024
Arms wounded
Hearts burnt
Time heals
*******, isn't it?

Each scars represent
Something with no meaning
Only blood flowing
Like an untamed inundation

Hurting the one you love

Hurting the one i love

Hurting the one

Hurting you

The one you love

The one i love

The one
90 · Jan 14
Mumble
Hamzah Jan 14
Let's talk
In homophones

I eye
Lights lies
Here hear
Excepting accepting
Prey's praise
Met med
Loves loafs
Live leave
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