Trying to drown my explosive thoughts in liquor

I never thought
That snippets of my past would catch up with me now

Little by little
They’ve been flooding in

And I’ve lost some courage
And wouldn’t dare dive in them now

Great swimmer, but stranded in the middle of the sea
Even Michael Phelps would drown

And all the while I’m drifting
A boat appears

Circling desperately
Here to rescue me

Written on its side
“Love is the way”

I can see it on the Captains face
He doesn’t want me to stay

But love is what got me here
Stuck, stranded

And to afraid to be saved by it now
So instead

I let it sail on a head
Maybe next time

When at 12 midnight
    My heart beats a certain pace,
        I finally turn off the lights
          As tears stream down my face

I think
About dying
a lot

Mum
has
worked
hard
all
the
day
say
thank
you

I can't change your love
I'm begging for your love
I want to get your love
in my heart, I feel your love!

I'm looking for your love
I'd like to sip your love
I believe love is you
and you are my love!

Oh no, I am not gone
and you are not alone
I am not even done
Don't you feel my love?

I love your smile and eyes
I can't stop loving you
I'm melting into you
Darling, I just need your love!