I am
A freshly broken heart
Not yet grieving
the aftermath

Stuck
Holding my breath
On the edge of a cliff
Frozen in step

Looking out
At a million paths
With feet planted
In quicksand

Swimming
In a sea of thoughts
Of the days ahead
And the days past

Nowhere
And everywhere at once
Processing
As much as I can

Slowly
It starts to sink in
Everything I knew
Is spinning

Like a kid in a candy store
I was loading up big
Filling arms and hands
'Till nothing else fit

But up at the counter
They gave me the bad news
The price was work and time
And I was overbooked

So I pushed aside the pile
And picked up one tiny thing
Hoping it was worth the price
Of all my other dreams

The words she would have said
Became a pleasant smile
Remembering what mother said
Some things aren’t worth the while

And holding tight a war of words
Burning beneath her skin
She answered in a silent nod
That seemingly agreed

When it comes
To inspiration
There's no waiting
I force her hand
Daily

Feed me with
favorites, re-tweets
and likes

Feed me with
hearts as
flat as knifes

Feed me with
double taps
and false reality

Feed me with
comments
from a celebrity

Stroke me
gently and
repeatedly

My ego
enjoys a timely
delivery

Hearts lay bare
Equally protected
Thoughts peel back
Without consequence

Questions are told
Only to be heard
As we slowly fold
Into a steady breath

More than lovers
Tangled between limbs
We are soulmates
Listening

Bulging Veins
Twisted faces
Hands raised
Angry shouts

Bold comments
Unveiled
Exclamation points
Abound

Crowds stop
as does their
sound

Fingers pause
and screens
shut down

Returning
to the daily grind
Resetting
default smiles