My face doesnt fit my head
My shoulders don't fit my legs.
My clothes don't fit my back
My chest doesn't fit this this shirt

I d be fine being ugly if it didn't matter

And i wish I could wear your smile

my hands bled
small red crescent moons
etched deep into my palms
that drip onto my lap
when i watch
                 i    c a n ' t    s a y    i t
and i breathe
shakey
spelling out your name
across my skin
in goosebumps
but my blood goes cold
and boils too hard
bubbling into my temples
popping in my brain
a banging
a raging
anger
my vision goes red

and yet.

I need you to be alright
I still need you to teach me so many things
I cannot go on without you
Do not leave me
Please.

The trick is to take
your eye off the ball - forget
and enjoy yourself.

When you realize
- ultimately, life's a
suicide mission.

Do the flowers fret
even as they bloom? Are swans
gracefully worried?

Ignore that small voice
- enjoy life's pleasures, thrills,
and delight in love.

close your eyes,
and turn off your mind
my sweet, blue valentine.
accept that we won't find
love in this lifetime.

no matter, how we desire;
water cannot be turned to wine,
a camel cannot fit
through a needles eye.
and we will never know love -
for it wasn't made in our size

life is to short to
waste it confined
somewhere you don't want to be
with people you dislike

they asked
Is that truly what you're after?
rather isn't it a mere excuse
to escape the disappointing
reality you're in
arent you just
endeavoring to prove them wrong
to find solace
for your bruised ego
isn't validation what you actually pursue
and perchance
a world where you belong