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nevaeh Dec 2020
i feel like my tastes
in everything-
people, music, fashion,
****, even my lifestyle choices
are all devolving
into some disgusting puddle
i actually kinda love my disgusting puddle tho
nevaeh Dec 2020
i would like to let you know
that at one point in life
i had something to say
but these days it seems
all of those important things
are just so far away
jeez im getting real ******* bad at this
nevaeh Dec 2020
be my friend

you don't have to hide things from me
you can tell me about the boy you like
and i want to tell you about her
because i really like her
or anything, literally anything
i just want to talk to you

i miss us before we got so broken
i miss being able to talk to you about anything
i miss making fun of you for all the dumb boys you date
i miss hearing you laugh at all of my stupid antics
i miss running through the halls and laughing at ourselves
i miss sitting by you at lunch and acting like little kids
i miss us when we were good and as happy as we could be

i miss my best friend
just be my friend, okay?
nevaeh Dec 2020
is her
if i ever loved another
it would have to be her

i mean, shes amazing
shes funny and sweet
and so ******* cute

god, i love making her laugh and blush
maybe i'm being silly
but i really, really like her


and can you imagine, me
with good friends and an amazing girlfriend
and a real smile on my face?
can you imagine me
but happy again?

because i can
and it sounds
******* great
ughhghg im sorry this is too positive for me
#ah
nevaeh Dec 2020
just in case you were wondering

i put my feelings aside, yes
and i try my best to be a good friend
(and nothing more)
i talk to other girls and guys
and i really do like some of them

but i don't ever stop loving you
it might be quiet and suppressed
but it's still there, still living in my heart like a fire

i won't do or say lovey things for you anymore
because i know that just makes it harder for you
but i will always have that love, deep down
waiting, hoping, for you to come back to me.
you aren't "unlovable" i'm literally in love with you ***** stop
nevaeh Dec 2020
(okay so i understand if you cant source these things naturally but its much better if you do)

so my go-to tea base is a blend of rose hips, allspice, and chicory for general good vibes

and for nice winter-y vibes this solstice you can add cinnamon sticks, clove, and dried orange peels for added comfort and prosperity in the new year
BONUS: add a teeny tiny bit of arrowroot for ultra good vibes and a sweeter flavor :)
if u add too much it will thicken and turn super gross so be VERY careful babes <3
nevaeh Dec 2020
december is pretty cool ig
the girl i like got me a present
and she LOVES the one i got her
lots of celebration and rituals and stuff
i made some bread
okay i made a lot of bread
and ive dried my herbs
so idk man
its december
lets just vibe
as of this solstice, in celebration of starting afresh, i hereby deem the new year void of all previous dramatics and loves and anger. basically im just gonna vibe - take it or leave it.
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