Am I in hell now?

I don't think it is heaven! --


There is no one here!

I’m not sorry about the things I said
Yet
But I will be
And that’s the closest you might ever get
To an apology

Small, wet, and
Buried
Trying hard to remember
I am a seed
Buried is where I need
To be

As you cleanse your body with water,
Cleanse your soul with love.
21/7/2024

The grand ambition of love is to find “the one.”
and, of course, to be the one.

It’s a hard combo.

Finding someone amiable, who’s the best lover, your best friend,
confidant, emotional companion, intellectual equal and soulmate.

And, of course, it helps if ‘the one’ likes to dance
and has a little piña colada money too.

And when do you know you've been successful - in year 50?

It’s the holy grail, the age-old dilemma of love and desire.
.
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A song for this:
Bullet and a Target by Citizen Cope
Wait Another Moment by The Bingtones

I can’t blame him for avoiding a potential train wreck
Or staying far out of it’s way
Uninvolvement completely
Why cross rattling tracks
When you weren’t even going that way?

Do I have your permission
To continue using you
As my muse?
It’s selfish of me
Maybe
To use you
Good and bad, too
My own ends
Nothing in it for you