even whilst you hang
beautifully in the sky,
you’re eternally
writing music for us
as you move the tide
rhythmically,
creating a harmony
that brings balance
to this earth.

when i look up at night
begging the stars to take me to them,
you tell me not yet,
hang on a little longer

but what to?
the ice is starting to crack,
the bitingly cold water below me
makes the blood in my veins stop coursing

soon i will be submerged.
any remaining heat left in me
will be stolen from my body,
the way dusk steals the daylight from the sky

you tell me to hang on,
but what if there’s nothing to hang on to?

i long to be there again...

lying on the moon,
embraced in his light.
bathing in his glow
swimming in his brilliance.

i long to dance on saturn's rings
and to sing with jupiters hum
i long to float in the void of space
weightlessly and effortlessly,

at peace

i reached out for your hand,
so i could follow you to that heavenly place
but my fingers slipped out of yours

and i started to fall
weightlessly
further and further down

i saw your face grow smaller
as i fell further
though the clouds
and back into the atmosphere

with eyes wide and pitiful
your hand was still outstretched
like you were reaching for me
even though you knew i had to go

i felt the wind surround me,
guiding me away from a distant dream
back to a harsh reality

without you

love just isn’t like how it is in movies
reality is harsh,
like an unexpected gust of icy wind

there’s no sheltering from it

you put out my light,
with your thumb and forefinger

so i took a match from the box
and watched,

waiting
and waiting,
for a yellow flame to erupt

but the light
no longer existed

i long to feel
even just for a few seconds,
so that i would get
a brief moment
without this endless
numb feeling