baby so soft
baby arms
so chub
like a soft chubby pillow
hugged my hands

he looked back
on their love

he could not
move forward

he lashed out
and inward

a waste of paper
of space

she took her time
she lost her mind

she cut her hair
due to the wear

she wished to vanish
to disappear...
maybe today
maybe in a year

your absence
makes me question
my presence

i sip water
as you sip
on your beer

your cheeks are rosy
and warm to the touch
my hand is ice cold
you flinch and pull away

your eyes are wide
my lip is cracked
a small bead of blood
forms atop
and slips down
my bottom lip

as you sip
on your beer

i see you sitting
in a sea of people
somehow
you still appear
alone

let me
approach you
keep you
company
so you don't feel
or appear
so alone

maybe you would
let me
but
i am having trouble
letting myself

your eyes absorb,
the entirety of my focus.

waiting for a reply,
you stare back at me.
dumbfounded,
my lips part,
as I realize,
I have no relevant response.

I learn,
to hear what you say,
I must look away.