i feel as though my body is no longer mine
a stranger in my own home

a b a n d o n e d * and *b r o k e n

isn't it funny how the one place i'm supposed to feel safest
is the one that does the most  d a m a g e

im not whole enough to love
and be loved
in return

I wish I had realized sooner that the love I was searching for in you
was already hidden
within myself

I want to be touched by you
but not in the conventional way
oh no
I long to be touched
spiritually
emotionally
I want you to undress my mind with your thoughts

although i seem fine
the life i live is a lie
for im dead inside

a sad word in many ways
we almost had our chance
our chance to finally be happy
not just together but also with ourselves
we almost made it
maybe if one of us held on we would still be together
or
maybe the  "almost" being in love is what saved us
maybe this almost love story was enough
maybe this almost was our everything

its sad
the way i allowed myself to be treated as an afterthought
but then again
maybe being known as  his sometimes
was better than not being known at all