Have you ever known what it feels like
to completely believe
that you deserve to die.
Have you ever known the tiresome journey
of a long day of depression.
Have you ever known the names
of the monsters hiding in your darkness.
Have you ever known the weight
looming over your body like an elephant.
A weight that presses into your chest
so heavy your lungs begin to collapse.
Have you ever know the urge
to take your own life.
to end the suffering.
to relieve the pain
you have caused to those around you.
Have you ever known the feeling
of looking in the mirror every day
and hating the THING  looking back at you.
Have you ever woken up every morning
and been disappointed you survived another night.
If you have never known the feeling
of screaming at yourself to do better, look better, be better.
If you have never known the feeling
of drowning in your own thoughts.
like a minnow in an ocean.
If you have never known what its like
to have to FIGHT everyday
just to get out of bed.
If you have never known
the earth shattering,
bone chilling,
mind swelling pain
that comes along with depression,
then you have no right to tell me
that it is just in my head,
or that i need to just get over it.
until you barely have the energy to breath,
you do not have the right
to tell anyone how they SHOULD feel.