This is my life now
There is no going back
All of my problems
Are getting hard to stack

Mistakes are catching up
I have nowhere to run
Stuck against a wall
It's clear drugs have won

I give up, give in
Crying in the pouring rain
**** me so i dont
Have to drown in this pain

It took me seven years
to realise
the words in my mind
were too deep for
my mouth to dig up
I thought it was easier
to open my skin
and let the truth
pour down my arms

It took me seven years
to realise
nobody should be allowed
to touch parts
of your home
or hold pieces  
of your heart
that you don't yet understand

It took me seven years
to realise
I will wear these scars
forever
I'll carry them
through every smile
every kiss
every concerned gaze
I'll carry them
to my grave

It took me seven years
to realise
the pain carved
into the walls
of my castle
etchings of
attempting to disappear
are not a story of weakness
but a tale of
how I survived