I don't love you.
It isn't that.
I just hope
And yearn
And crave
To be noticed,
To be touched.

I want that validation,
Can't you afford me even that?

Preciousness in a bite
It is the taste of hope
That I choose to savour
After every bitter tragedy

Sweetness in a breath
It is the scent of hope
That I choose to take in
After every stench of disappointment

Gentleness in a look
It is the sight of hope
That I choose to see
After every soreness in the eye

Bliss in a thought
It is the memory of hope
That I choose to remember
After every pound of headache

Happiness in a soul
It is the feeling of hope
That I choose to feel
After every shattering of the heart

It was such a whirlwind.
You came in
Made me feel
Made me hope
Made me crave

Then you're gone.
The storm of your presence has passed.

But it is still muddy.
I am still left to pick up.
I am still left to wipe off my boots.
I am still left to try to carry on,
When everything is dripping with a reminder of you.

Do I feel anything?

I feel you slipping away.
I feel the hole you left.
But do I actually care?
It feels like a dream.

Only tomorrow will show what is real.

I pray to the moons and the stars that you will become a fleeting memory.

I pray you slip out of my life unnoticed;
Just like you let me fall out of yours.

Baby, listen please.
I'm not in love, I'm just on drugs.

I overdose on you
Im like a ****** needing a fix
Doing everything I can to have you
I can't quit you even if I tried
Its heaven and hell your highs and lows
Im addicted to your love
I crave your voice
I can't let you go because I'm so tangled up in you
Ive convinced myself I need you

Don't speak
We are silenced
We are shutdown
We are *crazy

Why?

Is it so impossible?
Is power really unattainable?
Is a voice that repulsive?

The rules aren't the same
Expression must be stifled
Love must be dimmed

Our thoughts, our hopes, our wants
They just aren't valid

**Are they?