Samridhi

Samridhi Jul 2017

regrets

somewhere between studying, surviving
and making people happy,
i forgot to take care of myself
my body, my health, my very home.

I've had to go to three different doctors in the past week and god knows how many things are wrong with my body. of all the things, i regret not taking care of my body when it needed me the most.

#life #love #self #regret #body

Samridhi Jun 2017

five words

five words.
thats all you said
to tear my heart
into a million shreds.

how fat can you get?
he says
as he scans my body
like I'm a possible threat

i wrote this short poem 2 years ago when someone on the streets commented on my body. i still get stares & comments because I look "heavy" but little do they know that they won't tear me down. but this person did, and it's very hard to forget.

#fat #body #life

Samridhi Jun 2016

blue

the water forces itself
onto the empty land
glistening, bustling, filling
the emptiness of the dark brown beach.

like the water, you force yourself
into my empty heart
loving, leading, believing
the emptiness in the soul no one could reach.

writing after a good long hiatus

#love #water #sea

Samridhi May 2015

i wonder.

sometimes i wonder
how happy I would be
if i were just inches taller,
some pounds lighter,
and a little more prettier.

sometimes i wonder,
how different it would be
to be happy,
to be satisfied with myself.

sometimes i wonder,
how better it would be
if people just accepted
if people just respected
the naked being under.

random 4 am thoughts.

#sad #life #acceptance

Samridhi May 2015

earthquakes/2015

the ground crumbles
it shakes us with fear,
leaving us to wonder
about what's coming near.

we rush,
we push,
we run for our lives.
in hopes to live
in hopes to survive.

nowhere to go,
nowhere to flee,
every minute we pray to Mother Earth to let it be.

two years have passed
but the aftershocks still last,
instilling more fear
and leaving us to wonder
about what's coming near .

I've had this tucked into my drafts for two years and I still feel the chills thinking about one of the scariest moments in our lives.

#life #earthquake #pain #fear

Samridhi May 2015

that heart.

you say you have a heart.
a big ol' heart.
but the fact that you broke mine
made me believe you never had one.
a big ol' heart.
that big ol' heart i fell for.

random. random. random.

#sad #life #heart