My need for having a need for me
Is it my ego, or just vanity
I want just a single person to feel
My absence, fondness
To reassure me of my self-worth
I'd like to be in touch with the reality

When you hit, be ready for a quick push
What you throw it up, it falls down on you,
It's basic karma, one-oh-one
Be nice, be good, will bring a good turn
it all comes down to your intent in the end.

What I relentlessly seek,
to be a soul liberated,
Free from every attachment,
Bound by nothing, tempted by naught,
No unnecessary latchment.

The soul needs nothing, it's true,
To be free is its nature.
But my flaws have held me back,
My vision's a blur, a facture.

What do I really need?
Nothing, if I'm truthful.
Yet greed consumes, my soul depletes,
My life, a wasteful ruth.

Devoid of true knowledge,
I seek what's unclear.
My vision blinded, my eyes closed,
I'm trapped by my fear.

Lies will bite, anger will burn,
Karma's wheel will turn.
I wait for the reckoning,
My soul to learn.

Who will wash away my sins?
My thoughts, my inner foes.
They've led me down a dark path,
Where nothing grows.

My body deteriorates,
My mind fades, my memory erases.
I speak in riddles, no sense to make,
My soul, a maze.

Who will decode the mysteries?
The real truths that liberate?
The answer lies within,
My true self, my fate.

Oh, to be a soul liberated,
Free from every attachment.
To live my life authentically,
With true detachment

Tomorrow they won't care
At all, you'll be
Like dust in the air,
Nothing is fair.

You come across a world, worlds apart,
A sanctuary to call my own
A beam of light, a true calling
Rituals of care, a distant longing
As this year ended, you decide to go
To the other side of the door
You keep walking, leaving me behind
In the unjust world, I find myself alone
Your new angelic glow, a darkness in my life
Death is a final farewell, the supreme call
The memories keep going and coming around
I cherish them dearly, the wisdom and the banter
I wish I could flip the clock to go on forever
Because this lifetime is not enough
Wait for me till I get my to cross this sea.

Wartime liquid *****
Praises from the distant dead
A penchant for vanishing
Seamless letters, fresh and extensive
Pulsating with life, yet deceased

A life that was once so full
Now reduced to these words on a page
A testament to a time
That will never be the same

But the ***** of that life
Will live on in these words
A reminder that even in death
There is still hope for the future

So let us praise these letters
Remnants of a time
For they are a gift from the past
A reminder that even in darkness
There is always light to be found

Ardently I gaze at the glorious hemisphere,
Seamlessly stitched by the branches of a tree,
Where birds of paradise hover with glee,
A symphony of nature's artistry.

In the verdant realm of my imagination,
Where dreams and reality dance as one,
I find solace in the seamless narration,
Of what we can discover, even when my heart burns.

Should I minus my age by one year
it feels like I skipped last year altogether.

Another attack, more bloodshed
humans are in peril
It's hard to see
terror spreading
Why in this century
this should continue
We have read history too many to know
What can happen
And what will be lost
And no one is happy with the ending
We are losing humanity
It is strongly upsetting
what should spread peace, continues to be the reason of divide
Why do people resort to violence
Bloodstain on their fingers.

Okay, so I thought I needed that new pair of shoes.
Like, they were totally on sale, and I'd been eyeing them for ages.
But now they're just sitting in my closet, collecting dust.
And my wallet is feeling pretty sad.

I'm starting to think maybe I should've saved that money.
Or maybe I should've treated myself to a spa day instead.
Or maybe I should just stop spending so much money on stuff.
I'm not sure. Life's a mystery.

Now I look at something else, something I don't want,
A typical mind battle, I'd be keeping through and forth.
If I don't stop my mind now, I won't be able to defend,
For in the end choices are mine, desires don't end.

I am still unable to understand
what am I,
Intolerant or a person tolerant for way too long?

The things I can't bare to watch,
they happened all at once,
but not really so sudden,
A product of our collective silence.

It started in our home,
we ignored all the warnings,
we made the decisions then
And we are at a situation now,
How do I blame someone else when
My hands are with light red stains too

Its fine, you know, time works, fast and slow
But yet I still cannot bare to look anyone in the eye.

Cold winds follow, the shadow grow dark,
The night dreams end, I still can't wake
The ignorance is no longer your friend,
When misery locks your hand.

The things I have gained in past few months,
is back pain and weight,
and the knowledge of the things that I absolutely need,
and what I can do without
The question of wealth,
the importance of health
And praying for well being of all.

Forced from ancestral lands,
Paradise lost, a life undone.
Deserts encroach, sands reclaim,
Hope's flicker extinguished, one by one.

Fleeing across hostile borders,
Seeking refuge in shadows' embrace.
Home transformed to a crucible of pain,
Twisted fate etched on each face.

Lines of sorrow etched deep in their palms,
No solace remains, no beauty to find.
Only despair's echo in the desolate winds,
A symphony of anguish left behind.

Rejection hurts like it does
envelopes me into deepest sadness
pinching me within the chest
spreading the despair in every inch
grabs the heart and crushes it
with the strength of my palm.

Rejection makes me wish I cease
and cancel the existing life lease
Mundane things loses interest
and the state becomes quite desperate
I could go on but to feel this again
the gut wrenching pain

Quite nothing to gain
Quite everything is vain.

You live, I live,
Not for anyone else.

We breathe air
Not borrowed from anyone.

not debtors or creditors,
we are free to live as we feel.

We were destined to come
learn the lessons
Because we are the blessed ones,
Seeing the changes come
Be loved by none
We come and go alone.

Our time here is a short span
our lifeline is much bigger than the deadline.
Let's remove the unresolved dependency of others,
There is no reason to carry the burden
And make the shoulders numb.

It's time we stop searching for higher purpose
And live in the moment here and now
deal with problems as they come.

a perfect human
and the imperfect God?

Ardently and rigorously shaking fizz,
A symphony of sensations, a blissful abyss.
You look at me, your eyes ablaze,
As I dance to the rhythm of my own daze.

My focus is blurred, my mind unbound,
In this dizzying dance, I am truly found.
Quiet disgruntled, yet oh so alive,
Amazed by the luck that brought us to this drive.

Sincere flattery, is that a thing?
I am just kidding, but your praise does sing.
Satisfied, yet always yearning for more,
In this little dance, my heart does soar.

Feel light, that's the way,
Never to stay in one place, I say.
For in this journey, I am never alone,
With you by my side, my heart has grown.

So let us shake this, ardently and with rigor,
And dance to the beat of our own inner vigor.
For in this moment, we are truly free,
To be wild and alive, you and me.

It's getting late
late hours and I still don't close my eyes
I still wait for the chat to die
it keeps coming, back and forth
It's morning five
the sleepless night
An hour for day to break
My eyes remain awake.

here comes the midnight
or the dark morning.

In the blink of an eye,
Time passes us by.
We live our lives alone,
In self-made lies of our own.

We try to rise above,
But our castles crumble below.
When we're neck-deep in water,
Our steps are bound to falter.

We grip tight to the pole,
Believing destiny is our tool.
But in the depths of our scope,
We believe we are brought here alone.

Innate knowledge within,
Tells us we're all akin
A connect is what is missing
Our silver threads are entwined in
Pull and push, a sense of being.

It's funny to see you in business
Arming them to ****
Frowning, but sending them bills
Putting money bags in your account
Collecting wealth on shared misery
The very heart of this new age tragedy
It's always the same,
Building skyscrapers and bridges
With their ghostly blood on every brick
We know your bluff, your stanze
Looking down and away,
One more terrain in disarray
Your eyes on the next target
Starting fire on next oil.

He is unbothered, he is stunning
when we talk, i keep grinning
a matter of fate, how this begins
He is good guy within reasons
Secluded like me, antisocial like me
Loneliness in his eyes, I see
Brimming with hope, my heart
Sweet implore, need a headstart
looking out for better opportunity, us both
The tenacity, we soak
let's be little honest, I want to get to be yours
You are unpredictable set, a curious enough force
don't be so caught up in your phone
I don't wish to be forever alone

I've been raised better, I've been raised well
At all crossroads, I will take the right path,
But I keep glancing back, the roads are rosy
The flower is blooming, while I have to walk on thorns
It is never easy, I should know better
The truth sure tastes bitter
But my heart will stay sweet.

He keeps looking for reasons
He is searching for purpose
He found me in the middle
And he keeps following me
He strays into my path

I don't know why he does it
I don't know what he wants
But I can't help but feel sorry for him
He seems so lost and alone

I try to ignore him
I try to push him away
But he always finds a way to come back
He's like a bad penny

I don't know what to do with him
I don't know how to help him
But I can't help but feel like I owe him something
Like I'm the only one who can understand him

So I keep letting him in
I keep giving him a chance
I keep hoping that one day he'll find what he's looking for
But I know that day may never come

He's a lost soul
And I'm just a passing stranger
But for now, I'll be his friend
And I'll hope for the best

It came like a windchime in windy night,
A soft and gentle sound,
A whisper in the darkness,
A breath of hope.

It came like a warm embrace,
A feeling of peace,
A comfort in the storm,
A hand to hold.

It came like a ray of sunshine,
A break in the clouds,
A hope for tomorrow,
A light in the darkness.

It came like a song,
A melody of joy,
A reminder of beauty,
A reason to smile.

It came like a dream,
A vision of possibility,
A glimpse of what could be,
A reminder that anything is possible.

It came like a gift,
A blessing from above,
A miracle in the making,
A reason to be grateful.

It came like a whisper,
A gentle reminder,
That everything is going to be okay,
That you are not alone.

It came like a friend,
A shoulder to cry on,
An ear to listen,
A hand to hold.

It came like love,
A feeling of warmth,
A sense of belonging,
A reason to live.

It came like hope,
A light in the darkness,
A reason to keep going,
A reason to believe.

But why do I
feel like it came to me, and it is now gone again.

Of people that matter
  and the paper that glitters
Perceive the light around you,
     there are dark corners, every corner
But stick to the bright rays within,
    they'd guide you every way and between.

Saturn's gaze, my heart ablaze,
I fit nowhere, my pant size a haze.
Oversized coat for undersized heart,
Drum beats pounding, sleep a distant start.

How do I not
sink in
drown in the sea
of sadness

By the trees, I remember the street
I am bad at direction
In my life, directionless is all I've been
Going through the wrong turns
Coming back from the long cuts
Walking three miles for one
By the trees, I remember the street
All I wish to be there again.

Must be so simple to express
there is simply no reason to distress
More comes close to being less
Less becomes more as I say it
It comes out as with how I breathe
the gardens will bloom the same.

how is the reality inside your mind
are you surprised with what you find
sweeten the sourness if you get bitten inside
It is exactly where we live whole time
Why is it filled up with so much grime
Are we really exactly who we claim.

To pluck the courage, it is the right stage
no matter who comes, who encourage
anything happens, no reason to rage
It's natural that we leave the world
the rhythm keeps up even without a girl
Without ego, we are part of this chain.

How each year, you look back
and feel it come with so much drama
You think last year was tame
not so much fuss, but looking back
it had pretty much unbearable
iterations too, now we are seeing a new year dawn
It's trickling down
Your thoughts in the pond
Hunger taking the toll
World is out in a brawl
And now I feel it in my bone
the drama this year will roll
It will be much more intense
Than the movies I love to watch
But wish to never be there in them

How to quantify my worth?

by how people value me,
or by the contribution I made in my eternity,
or all the intentions hidden from you,
by my every thoughts I have ever had,
or can I by my social media presence,
or by counting tears when I die.

Am I even worthy enough?

I may look tough
but I do not know
what you think of me
or you and your worth
do not matter to me at all?

Do you know your worth?

Am I asking the wrong questions?
but I do not seem to care,
not at present when I am in trance
I was always born to die,
I have done less than what roses do
in their lifetime.

Am I worthless in the face of world?