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Drifting Down Dec 2014
Will the pain fade away or will I?*
terrified of everything-
afraid of reality,
afraid of my dreams,
a constant battle
that can’t be conquered.
on my own
I want help-
I need help,
but nothing will change my mind
I can never admit to the things
that went on that night
I can never reveal my secret.
afraid
Drifting Down Dec 2014
You’re not who I made you out to be,
You make the pain drag along so slowly.
I look around with fear and distraught,
If only I’d ever let you get caught.
The way you play with my mind and emotions,
It’s as if life is an everyday motion.
Trust is not something easily gained,
Because of you, I’m always strained.
You haunt me and I wish you’d stop,
Remember, I could call the cop.
What you did was illegal, you see?
But I want to just forget, and go back to being me.
why did you do this to me?
Drifting Down Dec 2014
Cruel whispers, gentle whimpers,
glares from across the way.
Judgments floating, lungs choking,
left lifeless for all to bear.
No one cares, secret affairs,
blank for none to see;
but the truth comes out,
when all it’s about, is lust and apathy.
the deadly sins
Drifting Down Dec 2014
I fell in love with someone
It’s hard to explain
I don’t always let people in
But I had nothing but to gain,
I was constantly battling myself, the past
He makes me forget it all
He’s showing me love lasts,
He makes me feel alive and strong
Like nothing can hurt me
I’m so blessed to have met Him
On this long ever-lasting journey,
I began loving myself
For He’s showing me how
Because His love is enduring
He understands me somehow,
Forever it’ll be,
Just he and me.
Drifting Down Dec 2014
whispers float
around the room
laughing at
rather than with
make it stop
get along
****** up world
of misunderstandings
you don't know
you never will
the life hiding
behind the sin
no choice to be made
it comes from within
I can't help
but be like this
  Dec 2014 Drifting Down
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our lips meet
legs interwine
you grant me permission
your body is mine
i kiss your neck
you bite my lip
i get on top
i grasp your hips
you tell me its time
let us light the fire
i do what you want
pleasure all your desire
i go elegantly slow
passionately i nudge
you lay the way i want
loving without a budge
you switch things up
our bodies swap
you become empowered
you're now on top
your hair flows
above my face
you ****** harder
my heart speeds its pace
you whisper softly
something in my ear
i only make out
“i love you” so clear
i pull your neck
i kiss you like mad
we lay in content
of the time we just had
Drifting Down Dec 2014
What's the point in wasting our time sulking in the bloodstained past that will never be forgotten
Or the blood baths of mystery soaking into any bit of happiness that we hope will soon come
Happiness,
None of us are truly happy in our shameful skins that are so ferociously clawed at,
But to feel the need to survive
To stay alive to bear through the pain
To experience those once in a lifetime memories
Worthless,
If that's all there is to count on
The evil over shines any bit of earth's wonders,
But what's so wonderful when all you think about is the next disaster that will soon destroy you
Into the billions of pieces you so carefully put back together,
Pointless,
No need to witness life's miserable beauties
Or death's unawakening faults,
When all that's on your mind is the darkness that will soon overpower you in a matter of moments
Courage,
You waste your time wondering if this is what you want,
When you spend every waking moment for this dreadful hour,
Why wait any longer when death will forever be on your shoulders?
Understanding,
As days pass by,
No one will remember,
They'll be just like you
Envying the fact that the darkness that you're indulging  yourself into now,
Will soon become impeccable brightness that will never leave your side.
Spent my entire life contemplating whether or not to follow through with suicide and end the suffering of everyday or continue to drag out the misery life brings. In the end, evil wins, takes control, guides my path. Purgatory.

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