back and forth
breath slow fast
see myself in another
less happy world

Uneven breathing rhythm
Serene becomes luxurious
One's mind now went unconscious
Fallen into a mayhem

What if we never happened in the first place?
When things turned different and you were in a different place
Far from mine
And there you're  doing way more fine
Than you are with me today
Just putting your heart in dismay

What if you happened with another
Will you be happier?
I feel like I'm just bringing you down
In a darkness myself can't cut down

I can't help but think that you were luckier
In a different world from ours where you can spend your days merrier

What if I wake up someday
Our paths never crossed in night neither in the day
And I'm the only one who remembers
For me the memories we had I remember them as a burning ember

I'm afraid when my ifs turns to be true
My ifs just continue to grew
I'm not sure if I can be fine
If finally, the world tells me you were never meant to be mine

Understanding can never be easy
even in the simplest things
It never was

When you thought you already do
It can turn out that you don't, not even to the slightest

When a person laughs
Sometimes, it doesn't necessarily mean they're okay
Inside, there is still this never ending battle they can't win
A daily grueling that keeps creeping in