drawn in
breathed out
whispers
hush, shhhh
creep around the corner
inhale
hit the wall
held tight
soft steps
heavy heart
weighed down
back pressed
hard building
barriers
walk away
brisk pace
gloomy alley
drip drip drip
worn walls
sewer water
creep around the corner
hush, shhhh
murky puddle
sneak a peak
creep around the corner
inhale
exhale
don't look away

I promise not to press you between my pages,
You're beautiful because you're so alive.

I've been trying to figure out how to get it back,
But I haven't seen you in months.
Have you found it sitting there?
I wonder if you threw it out along with fast food bags and stray receipts,
Or if maybe you repurposed it and hung it over your rearview instead.

It seems like the memory of you multiplies when I finally think it's gone.
I shared the things I love with you,
The things that are pieces of who I am.
I wish I hadn't let you into so many parts of my life,
Because I haven't stopped trying to get rid of you
And you've been creeping up from tiny cracks and crevices to spite me.
It doesn't matter what I do, what I use, what I say.
You keep blooming out of nowhere.

They packed my existence away
in ***** card board boxes.

I wanted to be her
I envied your dedication
The two of you so compatible
Yet we're simply complex
I will never be the stream running through those veins
The rhythmic beat of a heart that forces a smile of perfection across your face
I wonder do I make you as happy as the one who breeds your kin
A sad disfunction
A game I'm a afraid I will never win
I want to feel the beat of your heart flow through my vains
Then maybe just maybe it will be the music in my ear that gives comfort when it rains
I wanted to be her
A pattern in your soul
A continious reminder that we too could get through the bad days
I wanted to be her
But I realized my aspiration were simply too high