D Baby Bey: Poems

174 · Jan 2018

D Baby Bey Jan 2018

If only I had wings sighed the man,
I'd fly away from here.
If only I had feet sighed the bird,
I'd run to the ends of the earth.

#longing #travel

173 · Feb 2018

Metamorphosis

D Baby Bey Feb 2018

Metamorphosis

Ignore the resistance of becoming
Go forth and blossom

#bloom

170 · Jan 2018

The Visitor

D Baby Bey Jan 2018

The Visitor

I have a friend who visits me.
When I'm alone is when they speak.
All my faults they help me see.
They're my voice when I am meek.
Whenever I'm imperfect
My friend tells me what I should do,
In the end it will be worth it
But for now, punishment must ensue.
They whisper reminders in my ear
Like a tape 'corder of the things I've said
Whispering a truth that I have feared-
Bad equals me and good equals dead.

#depression #suicide

168 · Jan 2018

Why?

D Baby Bey Jan 2018

Why?

Why?
Why did you speak to me?
I was doing all I could
to be unapproachable.
I was determined to be unlovable
But you, that didn't stop you.
Why?

#persistence

159 · Jan 2020

Freedom

D Baby Bey Jan 2020

Freedom

I'm so alone
but i don't know how to change
or if i want to
living in confinement
this is my normal

you wouldn't know what freedom looks like
freedom is fear
freedom is discomfort
walking with your own legs

i'm afraid i might use it
and jump off the edge

149 · Jan 2018

Shattered Glass b.

D Baby Bey Jan 2018

Shattered Glass b.

Maybe I can fix things...
Maybe, but not likely.
Perhaps the thought is just as good.

#fix #thoughts

143 · Jan 2018

The Fight

D Baby Bey Jan 2018

The Fight

A feud between body and mind.
The sort of which you're like to find
In psychiatrical pastime,
Resides within me now.

Who holds the bow, I do not know.
I feel them tousle to-and-fro.
Round in circles, they do go.
On, like a nursery rhyme.

Can I last their fateful blows,
Will I live in sad repose?
Time alone will tell me so.
Oh cursed, misplaced sublime!

#fight #mind #insane

125 · Jan 2018

Shattered Glass a.

D Baby Bey Jan 2018

Shattered Glass a.

The heat of the words rise,
Driving us farther from warmth.
Until all that is left is the ice chill
Of distant shoulders.
Nothing left to be restored.

#gone #broken

123 · Oct 2024

Untitled

D Baby Bey Oct 2024

Untitled

I wake up to silence
outside my window
the sun shines through the early mist.
i am alone.
cold,
a ghostly aurora that is my own presence
lingers in this empty space
cold,
i am alone.

119 · Jan 2018

Wasted Time

D Baby Bey Jan 2018

Wasted Time

Wait itself is as tedious
As the passing of time.

Climb,
The hands of the clock inch.
It feels like an eternity.

Certainly I pass through as before,
But still the wait is insurmountable

Countable are the minutes that pass
One, two, maybe five?

I've got til 5 before I can go.
Back to the droll of wasted time

I'm stuck on a loop of waiting and wasting, wasting and waiting.

#time #procrastination

118 · Oct 2024

Return to sender

D Baby Bey Oct 2024

Return to sender

Your eyes speak to me
a promise never to escape your lips
you feel like empty bed sheets

I shout "Marco..."
wont you call back to me?

114 · Jan 2020

rotation

D Baby Bey Jan 2020

rotation

sun always same
we never change
just meet under different circumstances
turning round and round

112 · Oct 2024

Untitled

D Baby Bey Oct 2024

Untitled

how many shapes in the darkness take form
molding together into one shadow
fumbling, i feel the walls around me
guiding me.
begrudgingly,
i smile to my sorrow
as it takes form
in the darkness
it's walls,
guiding me.

107 · Oct 2024

circles

D Baby Bey Oct 2024

circles

I march onward
with no destination
o'
spontaneous wandering
like an ant
going round and round
i find myself retracing the same path once again

106 · Oct 2024

Untitled

D Baby Bey Oct 2024

Untitled

my little slice of heaven
is lying in your arms
head upon your breast
skin, warm... heartbeat, strong.

96 · Jan 2020

whisper

D Baby Bey Jan 2020

whisper

you can love with your body
but can you
with your breath
can you love me with your breath
can you love me with the air that you breathe

with the gentlest of breezes
like the wind that blows
and tells me that I'm safe

85 · Oct 2024

Untitled

D Baby Bey Oct 2024

Untitled

what am i feeling?
i look through a misted glass
my heart wants to escape
eyes meet my own reflection
who are you?
ive seen your face before
but i know you not
night lights reflect in your eyes
casting a melancholy glow
are you looking for an escape too?

61 · Sep 2

Untitled

D Baby Bey Sep 2

Untitled

The rain marries, and washes away my tears
Fresh faced, dew drops replace bitter fears.
The suns kiss,
Steady, strong and warm
Reignites my hope,
Clears my inward storm.
The wind runs,
Like fingers through my hair.
Mother nature loves me, when no one else is there.

48 · Sep 2

death is my shadow

D Baby Bey Sep 2

death is my shadow

what good does it do to tell others that i want to die
does it stop the pain?
does it ease the blow?
no
i hold it close to my chest
as steady as my own heartbeat
the thoughts flow
through the veins of my very being

—
you do not belong to life
—

death has his grip on my soul
i can’t run,
i dont want to run
how do i continue when the beat of my breath is
to the rhythm of “i must die”

i dont have will to live
i see no future for myself
ill only pain those i let in
i dont know what i want
if i live i live in the torment of doubts
i cant keep friends
i cant love

for always within me is the doubt
i dont belong to life

— The End —