No. I will not let sadness creep in.
No. You cannot control my thoughts. But do you know what goes on inside? I think not.
Or if you do, then you must be cruel. Because I worshiped you.
I cared about you more then anyone, and how do you repay me?
By filling HER heart with joy, and THEIR hearts with friendship, but not mine, no.
Not me, with my fuzzy jacket and messy hair. My glasses, braces and no make up on.
You laugh and be cool but I know you changed. You used to laugh with me and not against me, but now I know.
The girls with make up plastered on their faces, and the boys with their styled hair and backwards caps are yours. But never can be mine. So I am never to be yours, and you will never touch my heart which is to people whom I love, divine.

He's so beautiful
and handsome
and perfect every way.
He shows the lust that bothers others,
but not me- it never will.
His darkness and his evil unveil magically,
and once I look into his eyes,
he'll easily control me.
But sadly there's no magic, no flying to a land.
A land that's filled with happiness and pixie dust and sand.
The sand will glow from moonlight and happiness alike,
But if I step into that land, I won't return, my love.
I must let go of whats holding me. My very own child.
How cruel, how wicked, and terrible if I ever had to lie.
To lie that I would rather stay here with you than him.
A lie that never bothered, but one that cannot stay.
So off you go, hold on to that shadow,
my happiness can only be here.
On this magical island of happiness,
my Neverland with Peter.

Never looking back!
Never thinking twice
Had you on my mind..
Turning me to ice.

Now I'm free to run!
Heading to the sun
Always on the run
Never going back

Or to stop and think
That would make me sick
Always on the run
Its the runner's high.

Never looking back
Don't even say goodbye
Now I'm out of time!
Time to sprint away

Spare my breath for me
Say nothing in return..
Running in between
Going on full blast

Never looking back
Never thinking twice
Always on the run
It's the runners high.

I freak out.
Where did you go?!
You texted me just like a minute ago!!

I cant even breath, how will i survive?
Without you i cant see any **** light!
But there you are again, a reply to my text.

I can relax, and finally take a breath.
I cant handle being alone like that.
I should, but I just freaking cant.

Sometimes I feel Im addicted to you.
When the cravings get rough
Im not in the mood for anything else.
I want you, i need you, it doesn't make sense.

I wish it would stop
For its breaking my heart.
You wont always stay with me
We'll drift some apart.

were opposites, i know this.
Me the responsible, controlling one.
And you having fun just breathing the sun.

It may seem like a game to you,
but its different to me.
many times because of you
I felt my heart bleed.

Remember that time when you didnt come over?
Because of a guy you met on my birthday?
Well it made me cry.
Not cry but shatter. A puddle of tears that to you
just doesnt seem to matter.

Come on! You would say,
its no big of a deal!
I cant explain how that makes me feel.

Like you shredded my soul.
Like your not my friend.
like i dont mean a thing to you,
it was all for pretend.

Are you undercover?
Am i just some help?
Why should I be loyal
when you leave me dead?

You shatter my heart,
make me explode,
I busrt into tears

But no.
You just cant handle it all.
Youll smirk and let the whole thing fall.
I know i cant trust you, i must stop this now,
But I realize that my emotions are keeping me down.

I can never "unfriend" you.
Im bounded too tight.
Without you I wont be able to see your blue light.
I'd leave, but being too loyal to you, i'd never do anything to really harm you.
In the end well always stay friends,
Cause we know were the only ones who can understand each other the best.

There is something about your smile that makes me want to stay
Something about your eyes that sparkle remind me of morning rain.
Something in that hair of yours that makes it worth the while..
Something in that mind of yours that really makes me smile.

Too bad I crave so much
That you werent ready for
My exploding emotions that spilled over you
When you simply just sent me a heart,
I wanted you, I thought of you
But you didnt want me back.

Why did you send that heart of yours?
It melted me like gold.
I felt so bright, until our fight,
which ended cold as stone.

You also had a brother,
Too bad he was your twin.
I mixed you both,
It made me cry that you both looked the same.

You probably don't even care right now
This was just a summer fling..
But youll never know
that when of you I let go
How deep my sorrow is.

I visited your house once,
And saw the both of you.
But you stabbed me again,
with your morning rain,
and made me unhappy again.

You sat there motionless, cold.
Ignoring my faint hello.
You walked right by me without even a glance,
And both pretended to be in a trance.

Im sure you found love
with another girl
Im sure shes delighted
Oh lucky her.

But this is just life
And it's sure to repeat,
But oh how gruesome
To admit my defeat.

I was standing on the edge of silence
But as I tried to fall
A sound of someone screaming
Stopped my silent fall

It was the world around me
I couldn't escape the sounds
So I tried the edge of silence
For the millionth time now.

This loud, bright void of voices
Seem to drown out peace
But sadly the edge of silence
Wasnt something I could achieve

My mind went blank
I was lazy and tired
To communicate and listen to the world..

But we live here now
And thats all here now,
So I try to embrace
Try to make space
For this very loud, bright colored
noise.

Please.
I ask you to hear me.
Why you ignore me, there's nothing to fear.

I showed ignorance and pained for what you have done.
But now that pain is gone and I want more.
You made me feel safe and happy
I felt true love for you and had tears of joy...

Never did I feel so left alone,
so abandoned like there's no home.
I left my birthplace, I came to this place
but you still act like I don't belong..
I loved you and still will if you turn around and speak your love for me!

Sadness sweeps my heart
I need a way to part
But there is no way
I feel lost, and as if I must be cold to you too.

So please, I'm begging you, I love you and want to feel your warmth again,
and if you don't reply
I will gladly leave you,
and in my mind,
far away from you,
I will silently die.

Left me alone
away from people you know
Cant you see
that you were meant for me

Feelings die
So many times before
I felt like i would jump right out the door

Instead I go
and see a movie with my friends
But after it shows
I feel so locked up in my dreams

I feel the need to grow large wings
and fly away up high
Where no one seems to care
about the beauty of the sky

And I know that we will
never be as one!
And i see that maybe you weren't meant to be
with me,
But i still dream
without you.

I see what things would be
If you were meant for me
I wish i could forget
the feelings i regret
Those words that would escape
my trembling lips

My love is just too deep
You wont ever see
I want to fly away
to a magical place.

So dont come looking
I won't turn back this time
If ignorance is what you want
I'll give it to you just fine.

Late late late
Im gonna be late
So late in fact that everyone there
Will have someone to hate

Try try try
To flee and run outside
Theyr'e here! Theyr'e here!
They'lle yell at me to hear.

Stupid, lazy one
I wanted to have time
This time i cant control
I fly but dont go

Why why why
why cant i be so quick
so quick and skilled and organized
To get outside on time.

This plainess that I feel right now,
is really quite an art.
The people yelling feverishly are all but just a part.
A part of this humongous ocean tide called life.

It seems like just a day ago, I felt I needed more
I needed visibility, love, and more, more, more.
It feels like just the purity and carelessness of life
is that what I so needed in my attempts at living life.

It turns out you dont have to worry
you don't have to think
about your looks, who loves you and about what you should think.
Apparently this stillness, this plainess that's inside,
this easy going carelessness that you don't have to hide
is just what people notice about you wanting more
about you craving love and attention and what's for you in store.

They'll crave for your attention
and will want to be with you.
It's funny how instead of you
They're the ones craving more.

You could have told me to get dressed
it didn't matter if I was a mess
That evil one could do her harm
you should have said, I would have run

Instead you stupid hopeless fool
we sat here in the dreaded gloom
and while we sat, she died from pain
the pain that came to strike again

the next time you would need some help
i will just sit here deeply calm
and even when you yell for help
i wouldn't even call my mom

This tingly, hot red feeling that I feel
Could be only true for you
there is no seal; i broke it all
and all your faults will fall on you.

Slowly slowly time goes slowly
As the hours ticking by
drag on deeply, deeply, deeply
And it might be late to try.

How can I explore my talents,
finish work and watch T.V.,
If the hours, hours, hours
take up too much space for me.

Slowly slowly time goes slowly
With the hours rushing past
Eyes are heavy sleep is steady
This one more shall be my last.

Slowly, drifting off to sleep
No time to rush no time to think
I take my pencil in my hand
And finish this long-worded strand.

I had a rose
A beautiful rose-
But then it fell away

How could I let it fall like that
and watch it drift away?

the rose was red and smelled so fine;
It helped me stay away

Away from sadness and regret
but now it's gone away.

I do not have another one;
this was my last resort

I needed it so badly
to know love's just a sport

you took it all away from me,
and with it all your love

how could I breath
How could I live
When you were my last drop.

The dark silence loomed around us
Like a knife ready to fall
We feared our blood being spilled around us all

When the first scream errupted I was ready to run
But the dark all around us made me stumble and fall
When we realized he died, we all sprinted in fright and
hoped that we all got out alive.

Running forever in chaotic silence
Trying too hard to keep surviving

Screams all around me cut through like spears
Swiftly dead bodies were falling from spheres.
These spheres were like slicing bullets
they were, like enclosing traps with goo and gore.

Running forever in chaotic silence
Trying too hard to keep surviving

We followed the underground path,
until we spotted a metallic ladder
Climbing and climbing, the screeching growing louder,
We opened the lid and climbed out of the sewer.

Blinding light hit us like searing pain,
and blinded us all though we thought we might be safe again.
Some more screams errupting, as dead bodies fall, we quickly
clmbed out of our imprisoned hall.

This **** is so deep
I cant even talk
the nature calls to me

I want to breathe the magical air
That fairies guard with wings
The coldness is sharp
The loss is sad

But I must live on earth
Without the wings, without the past
That the magnificent maleficent had

Oh you tune of happiness and wealth
you make me sing and yell for help
For at this hour I must sleep
But you give too much good a beat.

I want to hear, to understand
The long and rhyming sounds;
But I must leave
And I must sleep
And I must stay away..

You give me hope you give me guilt
I crave the love
You keep well lit
But I know now without your words
I still will be alright

And as I leave and as I sleep
I lose those rhyming sounds

Night falls, leaves fall..
You come, I go.

I feel a rush behind my back.
I know I'll die if you attack.

But this rush has a different pulse this time
It feels like I'm running away from something mine.

With one last gulp of cold fresh air
I turn around at you and stare
I see your dark eyes shining bright
Looking mischevious during this fast flight.

I know I look worried and desperate too
You reflect my emotions well, you do.
I must not trust you
This wolf in disguise
The boy who is able to **** without fight.

But just as I flinch you let out a sound
A sound like a howl but I have no fright.
Your telling me feelings the ones that I crave.

I might be mad but you can sure stay.
For never in eternity have I met someone so cold
Turn into someone as burning as coal.

My room has a door
And a bed
And a floor

The sunshine pours in
Like warmth of a light
and blinds everyone's sight

The beautiful creature that sits on my bed
Is an orange cat that licks its own head
And as it meows I stare at its face; looking into a fiery glaze

Once I leave my own room I enter a hallway
It is shadowy and differs by light.
Though in daytime it's normal, it may scare you at night.

I have walked through this house with the cat by my side
And looked around with interested eyes
And at last I came to the front door, which led me into
a world of galore.

I haven't done no wrong to you
I haven't said a word.
I didn't ask for victory
I never craved a void.

Why do you let them speak to me
In a vile, snakey way.
I thought that you've forgiven me,
but that was just for play.

You smiled and pretended,
just like the rest of them.
You wanted some power some thing for yourself,
but I was too brave back then

Because you could not scare me
You wanted hate even more
I hate you I hate you I hate you.
You'll never hear anything more.

Your flashing blond hair,
your sparkling eyes
You made them all think it was true:
That the heartless broken demon
wasn't really you.

How could they so easily see you
Just like the way you are,
when I really see a demon
Trying to **** a star.

So bored
So very bored am I..
I feel like it has been eternities since I came inside
I want to feel the summer air and sun, and run through sprinklers in a park
Some sunshine to enlighten my day, can chase MOST of my worries away
Oh how I feel so free when I'm outside,
Although right now I'm trapped inside.