I'm broken
I know for sure
I'm not whole
I was once
But not no more
It has crept in
A silent demon
Left me hollow
Taken who I was
left me with who I am

I made one mistake and
It ruined us both
You were the only one
I loved and the
Only one i trusted
Now I have no one
I can’t even talk to you
And all I’m doing
Is falling

Falling and falling
Into this pit that only
You can help me out of
But I can never see you again

Teenagers make big
Mistakes but
This one might top them all
I ruined a friendship
And relationship in one day

I just sit here thinking, crying
That you will message me back
That we will find a way
Back into each other’s life
But then reality strikes
And I know,
Dear god I know,
That we will never
Be one again

I tried to isolate us from the world
To save you
But really what
I needed to be saving
You from
Was me
Because everywhere I go
Is pure destruction

One chance
Is all I got

Before you leave me for good

But tell me
If we put a limiter
Like this
On our relationship

Is it still called a relationship?
Or is it a mere test relationship?

To grade it
As a pass
Or a fail

I feel that
Our relationship
Is just a time-bomb
Ticking
Until it meets its end

We are just
On the verge
Waiting
For one of us
To fall

*It is what it is

Most believe that people have souls,
In which I must ask, which one controls the person?

The mind? Or the soul?

My thoughts of you
are like hundreds of seagulls
on two sides of a bridge,
some perched on small
islands of ice, others
floating on frigid water.

Or maybe they are
like roses in the wintertime -
budding but not blooming,
waiting for some warmth,
or like the once fragrant petals
now fallen to the ground.

Last night I cried myself to sleep thinking about you,
the ******* chemistry that we used to share over
the midnight campfire, our sleek bodies rising in passion
with each bursting flame, deep shifting fingers pressed
up against thick sheets, as our ankles and thighs
harmonized and smiled, glossy green eyes filled
with lust and immense thoughts.  Your soul was
calling out to me in the nighttime sky,
vibrant skin sifting inside timeless climaxes
and rewinds, shimmering lights and hypnotic
gleams, an ocean of water and poetry gliding on
booming beats.  The world began to sink inside
our romance, the horniness of our hot flesh sizzling
in sparking temptations, deep designs and glimmering
patterns.  And as our nations made music over earth’s
creation, brilliant escapes and captivating depths,
you were the magnificent star inside my kingdom,
the purest existence that could illuminate the fire
inside eyes.