In times of trouble and insanity
I carry masks to disguise
the pain I carry
secure behind my eyes

I can never let out again
the misery I hide
to hell with my dignity
to hell with my pride

from this day forward
and for ever more
I will mount this mask
that will be my lore

No reaching out when I am weak
no solace will I seek

when you look for answers
when you say your prayers
all you will see is masks
and no pain that I bare

It's hard to breathe
And weird to touch
I was acting so normal
And I was thinking too much

Trying hard
To figure out
Moving onward
Engulfed in doubt

Don't look back
Too much pain
And in fact
Nothing to gain

Filled with knots
Wasted time
I got a penny for my thoughts
When I deserved a dime

Who's to say what's true
I never said I was right
Guess I never knew
It's not worth the fight

Thinking about before
Don't know who I was
Could have closed the door
And never been an "us"

Said you would stay
Promised you could
Chose to walk away
I knew you would

Everything was fine
Said we'd never part
Knew it was a line
But gave you my heart

I'll take the blame
I've always known
I played your game
You lost alone

I know you know
There's more to give
You were a stepping stone
I have a life to live

Hard to love
Weird to trust
Acting typical
Think it was lust

You told me to be strong,
Then you left

There's not much to lose
This proves
There was no Me and You.
I just realized,
There's no time for cries
I just have to face the fact
That i'm not wanted back.

There's no time to be blue.
That's the golden rule!
I'm sorry...
Oh what did I do?

All I have to do
When i'm feeling blue,
Is close my eyes,and
Think of you.
I can't sleep at night,
'Cuz you're on my mind.
I'm sorry, and
These words are true.

You lifted my feet of the ground
To spin me around
Loving is dangerous, dangerous
theres something i cant understand
how we'll always be more than just friends
There's not much to lose
This proves
There was no Me and You.
I just realized,
There's no time for cries
There's no time to be blue.
Remember that rule!
I'm sorry...
Oh what did I do?
I just couldn't help but love you

I'd like to say
We gave it a try
I can't help you fix yourself, but
At least I can say I've tried
It's time to say goodbye

It's hard to say what brings happiness
To see you is to sympathize

Should I give up
Or should I keep on chasing pavements

I'm sorry, but
I have to move on
With my own life

Sometimes I feel
Like I don't belong in this world.
I try too hard, and
I care too little.

No one understands how I feel.
I feel like something in my life
Is missing, but
I just don't know what...

Am I living, or
Am I just alive?

I lie
About my life a lot,
So they don't know
The truth

All I do is hurt
Those who
Are around me

Am I living, or
Am I just alive?

Please don’t cry
I’m not really gone
When you look out the window
I’ll be standing on the lawn

Please don’t cry
I’ll see you again
Don’t be sad
Keep up your chin

Please don’t cry
I’m not really dead
When you cry yourself to sleep
I’ll be by your bed

Please don’t cry
Just because we had to part
As long as you remember me
I’ll live in your heart

Please don’t cry
I’m not gone forever
I’ll be a cool and gentle breeze
In hot summer weather

Please don’t cry
Don’t run and hide
When you need a shoulder to lean on
I’ll be by your side

Please don’t cry
When you’re sad and weak
I’ll be there
To kiss you on the cheek

Please don’t cry
This is just a goodbye
So please, oh please
Baby, do not cry

You always said you loved me
you always said you cared
That you would always be with me
that you would always be there

You told me that you are here for me
through all the pain I feel
You told me that you are with me
till your very last meal

But you were never there
through all those endless nights
You could never stop the crying
after all those fights

My heart tore
and you just walked away
my happiness went up in smoke
everything looked gray

now after all that's happened
all the lies you told
how could you lie again
how could you be so bold

You say it again
"you are here for me"
if I'm here for you back
sure I'll be there
and I'll care
you know that that's a fact

But will you be here
for me
till the very end?

don't lie again
you are not my friend
my heart you could never mend

I gave you trust
you told me lies
I gave you hope
I can see it in your eyes

Please don't lie
We both know
you could never be there
to wipe my tears
or vanish my fears
you could never care

I lay here to night in a dark silent room,
Feeling only pain and uncontrollable gloom.
Pictures of the blood flash in my head,
Pictures of you laying on the floor dead.
Never to come back and mess up my life,
I smile as I wipe your blood from my knife.
Your darkened red blood spills out on the street,
Your Colden heart stop DEAD in its beat,
I think back to all the pain and the hurt,
As I cover your body and spit on the dirt.
From you or you GAME I Can no longer run,
And me killing you was my turn for FUN.
Oh how they'll cry and Oh how they'll weep,
But I know their Sorrow is ONLY SKIN DEEP.
As I turn to walk down the cold empty street,
I walk to the rhythm your heart USED to beat.
I think Back to you lying dead on the floor
And SMILE knowing your heart beats NO MORE!!!!!!!!

Life is not all rainbows and butterflies.
Just ask the ones that lie inside,
Lifeless and dull.
Fluttering their wings inside my skull,
Torturing me until I have died.
Life is not all rainbows and butterflies.

Looked in the mirror, nd
I didn't recognize who I saw
I placed my hand on the mirror, and
My jaw dropped in awe

She was skinny and pretty
Everything I wanted to be
I turned away and shed a tear
That isn't me...

I stared at her
For a minute, I think.
I tilted my head, she stood straight
I just saw my reflection blink

You should have never come around
You have my heart
Don't know how you did it, but
You're all that I have

Love can't grow in the dark, but
I know the truth will be revealed
I just can't help but love you

Whenever people argue with me
I always think I must be wrong
Most burning issues generate
More heat than light

I've been sleeping with the lights one, because
The cold darkness surrounds me
As the midnight releases an army of bright stars, and
I drown in dread

You told me that they were wrong,
So I stood up for you!
I believed you were the one

You had all the chances in the world
To tell me the truth
What the hell is wrong with you?

Are you even listening when I talk to you?
Do you even care what I am going through?
Your eyes stare but they are staring right through me .
You are right there but it's like you never knew me.

Do you even know how much it hurt,
That you gave up on me to be with her?
Revenge is sweeter than you ever were

I'm so mad at you right now
I can't even find the words to express it.
You are on the way down,
I can't wait to see you burn!
You try to make me hate that girl,
When I should be hating you!
What the hell is wrong with you?

I tear my heart open,
To sew myself shut.
My weakness is
That I give a ****!

Now, my scars remind me,
My past is real.
I'll tear my heart open,
Then I fail.

I sit alone in the dark.
My eyes have darkened,
To a color never before seen.

Demons
Screaming,
Scary thoughts
Bleeding wrist,
I am incomplete,
Torn

I'm Broken
This is now how I live

My hands are cold
My lips are purple
This is how i die

Did I mean nothing to you?

All your lies have wounded me.

Pour me a glass of wine

What was mine is no longer

I jumped then changed my mind

"Just married" said the shattered windshield

I just saw my reflection blink

I met my soulmate, he didn't.

Don't do this, you're scaring me

Why did you have to lie?

I knew you were the one.

Tell me that you love me

Hey B,
Why you acting like a stranger?
I remember when I used to be your favorite.
We used to stay up for hours 'til the latest.
Ain't it funny how things change?
I hate it!

You know we can't just escape ****,
That's life.
You gotta man up and face it...Alright?
I always smile just to fake it,
But tonight imma tell you how you made.

I can't ever move on!
When i'm with him I think of you
Yes, I know that's wrong.
I'm not really the type to sing stupid love songs
But when our song comes on I sing along.

Why?
Cuz i'm angry and i'm hurt!
I thought you were the best.
Got me feeling the worst.
I feel something in my chest
When I try to find the words.
I said "**** the rest, i'll always put you first!"

That's that **** that gets me tight,
Now it's giving you the nerve,
You thinking that you're better
Running with them *******
Stating that you fed up.

You forgot about the time you were down?
I kept your head up!
How about that life that you said we would set up?
I'm not that straight you know
I got plenty people hitting the line
Ask me how i'm doing,
Imma always say fine.

Baby, i'm a g
You know i keep a straight face.
Why give you the satisfaction?
I about to put you in your place.

When I think about us, I get sick to my gut.
I got pushed to the point that i'll never know love.
Everyone I meet now,
I know I will never trust.
Mean while your niggahs trynna know me.
You thought you was the man, you never broke me.

Don't try to call dibs, you don't own me!
Don't try to meet me, text me, don't phone me.

Hmmm? What's wrong?
Now you feeling lonely?
When I brush you off
That's when you gunna hold me?

Imma tell you exactly what I know b,
Karma's a *****
You shoulda loved the old me

Let me tell you about a game I play
Where I close my eyes and fade away

I float away to a special place
Beyond the stars and moon and space

In this special place you see
There are only two people - just you and me

In this place, all is right
Nothing but love, and we never fight

In this place, there is no sadness
No cells, no courts, none of that madness

No rules to follow, no laws to break
No bars to hold us or separate

No one to tell us we can't kiss or touch
I don't just tell you "I love you" - I show you how much

But eventually the game must end
My eyes must open, and reality sets in

But someday soon - I'm not sure when
I will close my eyes and play my game again

Pain is a game
We all have to pay

Now that it's over
It's time to move on
I can do bad
All by myself

Life goes on
This is merely an ending, but
Like a fool I forgave you

You have been lured into the cave of joy.
We sing,
We dance,

Once you're tired,
We take a rest.
I'll smash your face with The Killing Stone.

I'll remove the stone,
and lap up your blood.
I'll show them
How sweet revenge really is

It was just them.
No me,
No you.

I knew from the beginning we'd be blown away.
Such as a speck of dust in the wind.

You see, now glitter paths lead the way
To a world of doom.
The dark path leads to a world
That is brand new.
I followed the glitter,
You did too.


We never made it.
It was just them.
No me,
No you.

I love you more than words could ever say.
I feel it growing everyday.
all the love I feel
as never been so real
you gave me something, no one has ever given me
something one can simply not see
it makes me think of you
your love is so strong, and so true
this feeling that you gave to me
makes me want to be with you endlessly


to feel your warm embrace
it makes me feel safe from harm
I look into your eyes to look through your disguise
I feel your hands with mine,as our fingers entwine.


your eyes are full with unconditional love
your kisses so sweet and soft
it makes me crave a million more

I love how much you care
the way you show me is beyond compare ;)
I love the way you smile secretly
my eyes are kept on you all the while.
I love the way you apologize
because it makes me realize that what you did was unintentional

Even though I am strange
you don't ask me to change
you admit i'm right when we fight
I hate to see you mad, or sad
it makes me feel bad

what you feel, I feel
it makes me think our love is real.
I have never seen you cry
I always wonder why

I am sorry for the things I do
that makes you so blue
I am sorry for hurting you

My anger is hard to control
Please, don't feel so insecure
This I am sure
no one will ever replace you
because I not only love your face
I love the real you, not the one that follows the others

A new born breeze has awakened my heart.
As it twirls through the air, and play around with my hair.
I wake with a start.

Look at the new world around me.
The sun rises just as I yawn.
This early morning,
I look around and see the trees glisten under the weight of last nights snowfall.

My breath freezes as I let out a sigh.
But the cold does not faze me.
I walk among the pasture to see what this winter brings us.

The wind begins to sing, causing the snow to stir
Wild
Beautiful
Untamed
Free

I thank the winter's gift to me.
Continuing to roam the snow,
Silently begging it not to go

This is the wonderland that I love to see
For I am the Winter Fairy.

What does forever mean to you?
When you couldn't even keep it true
You said were you'd forever be there
But were those just words pulled from thin air?
Did you actually love me?
Did you really see the feelings I see?
The truth, the love, the loyal tears
The betrayal, hate, and the fear
I thought you felt the same
That you would cover me in the rain
I thought forever and always was forever
But now there's not an us…never
You said you'd always be there for me
But now I truly see
That you never saw the feelings in my soul
Now you've pierced my heart with a hole
But my heart has healed
Now I have friends that are real
And you're gone out of my life
Unable to pierce me with the heartbreaking knives
I thought forever was forever not just a word
But I guess that's not what I heard…

"Our life is like a thorny rose
Not perfect, but
Always beautiful"

The thorns represent
The hardships in our lives.
The delicate red petals represent
The fun and beautiful things in our lives.
As a young rose
The petals hugging around the seed
Are the family and friends who protect, love, and care for us.

I walked along the bridge
Watching cars zooming past
On the corner of my eye
"Who would care if I died?" I ask
With warm tears, I cried

"You're not pretty enough
Skinny enough
Tall enough either!"
"Just end your life kid
It will benefit us."

If only they knew
What was going through my head.
I looked down at the ocean
From  the narrow ledge

A man got out his car, and ran
He gave me his hand.
'"Don't do it!
Come with me
Everything will be fine...", but
It was too late
I jumped then changed my mind

I miss you
I love you
I hate myself
I wanna die
Just **** me now, wait
I'm to big to cry

I feel like my heart is stuck in
Bumper to bumper traffic
You will never know that feeling

I can't face the truth
I'll do everything different

Go ahead, and steal my heart
Go ahead, and make me cry
You can have my heart, but
You cannot have my name

I'm full of
Sensitivity and intensity
I'm flawlessly broken
When will you notice?

She twirled  as if she was in a trance,
A seductive glance gone in a flash,
teasing, holding me prisoner,
Under her spell she completely surrenders

The light in her eyes, the warmth of her smile,
Passion took hold as my soul merged with hers
My heart has been exposed for all to see
I am lost in a dance of romance.

A candle light flickered, and a  sweet fragrance lingered,
Shooting stars streaked  the skies.
A gentle breeze carried the music,
The music of your love and mine.

Fingers caressing, a quickening pulse,
Soft smooth skin so close
Our bodies entwined,you  whispering secrets,
as soft candle's glow slowly subsides.

Scars, you know they burst
Sending the pain throughout the earth
You have alot to learn and
I know you're worth it!

when I finally left
you begged me to stay
but all the times you were gone
it was all okay.
it was cool if you partied
till 4 the next night
I was at home crying
but to you it was alright
I remember one year
it was valentines day and I was sick in bed
you could of been there to take care of me
but out cheating on me ..instead.
I wonder if I did that
how that would make you feel
the person you thought loved you
betrays you and thinks its [no big deal]
I think its kind of funny now
that I stayed around that long
did you only push me down
to make yourself feel strong?
I know relationships have problems
I know there will always be
I know you were with her when you should have been with me

I know I love you with all my heart
even though its all in half
I guess ill try to repair one side
the other you can have
I miss you every single day
but I know leaving was the right thing to do
cuz if you really love me
you would of never been untrue

What does forever mean to you?
When you couldn't even keep it true
You said were you'd forever be there
But were those just words pulled from thin air?
Did you actually love me?
Did you really see the feelings I see?
The truth, the love, the loyal tears
The betrayal, hate, and the fear
I thought you felt the same
That you would cover me in the rain
I thought forever and always was forever
But now there's not an us…never
You said you'd always be there for me
But now I truly see
That you never saw the feelings in my soul
Now you've pierced my heart with a hole
But my heart has healed
Now I have friends that are real
And you're gone out of my life
Unable to pierce me with the heartbreaking knives
I thought forever was forever not just a word
But I guess that's not what I heard…

It was over from the start
This results in a broken heart.