Okay,
I know that I nag,
And I'm so annoying,
I always ramble,
And you put up with it.

See the thing is,
I haven't cared this much,
Not in a while,
And I don't want to lose you.

I'm scared,
That you'd break down,
And I wouldn't be there,
Or you might do something drastic,
Cuz I'll forever have nightmares.

You're so important to me,
I don't know why,
But I want to feel your heart aching,
I want you to know that I'll always care.

And that's why it kills me,
I never get to know,
If you're dying slowly,
Or I fill you with joy,
If you're incredibly happy,
Or I've made things worse.

I care so much,
And I love you so much,*
You're the most realistic friendship,
That I've ever had,
And I don't want to discomfort you,
But I'm scared that I'll lose you,
It'll all be my fault,
For not trying hard enough.

Would things had been different if you knew

How much I thought

And dreamt of you.


Would things had been different if I had said-

Our memories unfold;

They're on replay in my head.


Would things had been different if I confessed

That all my writings were made for you

Through hurt, through moments, through poeticness.


Maybe if I had, things would have been different-

Maybe it would no longer be you and she.

Maybe instead it would have been

You and me.