we muted our feelings
and hung
in the awkward
quiet
in the pause, the stillness of a love
meant to flow

these times
only measured
the gap, the distance
between you and i

there were moments
however
we'd sink down
together
meet at the place
the pivotal spot where
beginning and end
inlock
entwined in embrace

my dreams as my life
my life as my dreams

the birth, the first
heartbeat
the reason
the breath

ecstasy and pain don't sound
here
they exist
locked down
smaller than a needle's point
larger than this world

locked down
together
you and i
the home found in one another
the source, the all
the truth
in our silence.

"I just don't fit in,"

​I'm better off dead

"It's just a scratch,"

It hurt and it bled

"I'm just a little tired,"

I'm trying not to cry

"I'm fine, I promise,"

*I just want to die.

When I look in the mirror I hate what I see
I look and I see someone unknown to me
But hey that's okay I'll be okay soon
On the way up to heaven, past the moon