bright orange illuminates the sky
making an ominous silhouette of the tree line
burning it's fragile frame into my eyes

behind the gleaming in your smile
is where i'd like to sleep for a while

Even those
with
the iciest blood
and
the bluest hearts
still have
moments
where they wish
there was someone
they could wake
in the middle of the night
and whisper
"This has happened to me
and it is not ok
and I am scared."

Your My In Between

I know that Heaven's a beautiful place,
with plenty of things that I haven't seen.
Earth has its beauty, like the stars in space,
you are the diamond that's trapped in between.

The flowers bow down each time you walk by.
In the presence of such beauty and grace.
The wind will whisper your name with a sigh,
while the moon reflects the glow on your face.

The birds stand in line to sing you a song.
As the ocean plays its magical tune.
The leaves in the trees will all sing along.
As the moon and all the stars start to swoon.

Between Heaven and Earth, you're beauty lies.
Polished perfection, my diamond, my prize.

I know you’re right,
Yeah, I know it’s true
I’m a messed up a guy,
With some messed up moods,
But can you really say,
You never though I loved you?
I loved you then, and I still love you now
I know it might hurt
Cause I know you hate me now
I know you never loved me back, and that’s fine
Through all the lies and misery,
You at least used to make me happy
And I don’t think you’re bad at heart
Flash just got me going from the start
If I never see you again,
Can you at least pretend that you cared?
That if we meet in heaven, it’ll be more than just awkward stares?
I don’t know about you,
But I’m feeling pretty down
And I don’t have you to turn it around
I guess it’s good,
That you hate me now…
Won’t have to worry so much about
All my pain and suffering, just laugh them off instead
I’m a joke,
I guess I always knew it
But it hurt to see you laugh behind my back,
Just didn’t know you could be like that…
Deserved it a million times over, sure,
But that doesn’t make it easier

I guess I might be the worst person in the world
And I hope ya get a kick out of it
Maybe just,
Laugh a little bit
You know I’ll be waiting

I don’t care if it takes years,
Maybe it’ll take more
But you’re something worth waiting for
I don’t need your love again,
But is there that chance we could still be friends?
I know you don’t care,
And no one else does, so I don’t blame you
But you said you cared once, was none of that true?

You know I cried
Many nights
Trying to make the wrong things right
I never could get a hold on them,
Losing track of my mind again
I thought you’d always be there for me…
But I was wrong to hope, I see
I guess you were fake anyways,
At least that’s what your friend had to say
And maybe I shared too much with you,
Since you would cut me off if you wanted to
And ya did

I know I sound crazy,
That’s only cause I am
I’d change it if I could,
But changing isn’t something I can do,
Even if it was for you

But please, just tell me if you ever cared
If you loved me like I loved you then,
If you weren’t just lying for the fun of it
I’d like to think that I meant something to you
Something I no longer do
So maybe in a year or two,
We could be friends again

When I look in the mirror, I wish I was somebody else
Just this disgusting reflection, me and no one else
Minutes run into hours, hours run into days
I'm still waiting for something, to take away this pain
Fa Fa-Fa Fa-Fa-Fa-Fa-Fa
Never be the same again
Fa Fa-Fa Fa-Fa-Fa-Fa-Fa
Never be the same again
They were always saying something, they swore they'd never say again
They were always saying something, they swore they'd never say again
Fa Fa-Fa Fa-Fa-Fa-Fa-Fa
Never be the same again
Fa Fa-Fa Fa-Fa-Fa-Fa-Fa
Never be the same again
Gonna through the hallways, and find my way to the door
I'll just end up like always, back where I was before
I still look in the mirror, wish I was somebody else
But it's still my reflection, me and no one else
They were always screaming something, they swore they'd never say again
They were always screaming something, they swore they'd never speak again
Fa Fa-Fa Fa-Fa-Fa-Fa-Fa
Never be the same again
Fa Fa-Fa Fa-Fa-Fa-Fa-Fa
Never be the same again
No matter where you go, you'll never find your way home
You'll never find your way home no matter where you go
They were always saying something, they swore they'd never say again
They were always saying something, they swore they'd never say again
Fa Fa-Fa Fa-Fa-Fa-Fa-Fa
Never be the same again
Fa Fa-Fa Fa-Fa-Fa-Fa-Fa
Never be the same again

I see how white light startles.
I snapped a pic and she spun in circles.
She wanted a photograph
to cover her mother's epitaph,
so she could have a laugh.

She smoked to get away -
but this isn't what'd she say,
exhaling, "All we are is carbon
and a lack of empathy."

We blended into hues of
microwave dinners
and church alters.
I used to tell her to go
just to halt her.

We prayed to get away -
but that's not what we'd say,
whispering, "Help us be more
than carbon and a lack of empathy."