Always.
Always keeping my head above water.
Always feeling like I'm drowning in a sea of people.
The liberating lighthouse won't shine its light bright enough.
But maybe I just can't see it.
Always and forever.
A phrase once spoken between a flower and a ****.
Promising that they would someday soon become a beautiful bush.
Entwining their stems together knowing they both came from different roots.
It wouldn't be love they thought if they had it another way.
But weeds are already dead, and have been.
All ways.
All the ways it could have happened would have turned out the same way.
All the ways I tried I was constantly proving that I was somehow better.
I was somehow different that made me alien.
Always keeping my head above water.
Always.

let's all revel in the duplicity
duplicate posts that lack authenticity
authentic thoughts fall to the simplicity
simple minds are guilty of complicity

a new origin of no originality
original thinking crushed by formality
formal rules lead to our commonality
common perspectives to lower our mentality

As I stand staring at the blue clear sky,
While the sound of crashing waves echoes in my mind,
I remember your eyes looking so bright that time.
I gazed every inch of imperfection yet I still saw beauty behind those holes.


We sat on those spacious bench.
I remember you beside me being in silence,
We counted vintas on the calm bay.
And funny thing, I wished you to stay.


All I knew is the burning love I had for you.
I didnt even notice that it burned you.
I stared at the blue clear sky without noticing it's getting dark.
I remembered how blind I was to keep loving you.


And finally, Im letting these feelings go like how you left me.
The thing is, it took me a long time to let go.
And you left me in a blink of an eye.