You can memorize a thousand lines
And you can make a thousand people laugh
You can give time and a half
You can invite people to a world they’ve never been
You can fill their faces with mile long grins
You can hear the thunder of an applause
As hoots and hollers come out their jaws
But when the crowd leaves
When they take away their energy like thieves
It is then that you must return to yourself
When you must return to the person you are
And remember every single emotional scar
When your character goes to sleep
It is you who will have to weep
So you can memorize every line
You can do everything to make your character shine
But when the lights go out
Then you’ll be given back all of your doubt
Yet
If you decide that the lines are who you are
And you’re willing to go too far
Then perhaps the character never went to sleep
Maybe all you are is your characters built into a heap

I felt like
Writing something that
Made no sense at
All
Yeah just words that bubble in my
Brain
No I’m fine
Close the door
Whoops
Piano and a ding
Pretty lady wanting to have a fling
No no no
Please leave me alone
I have no words
That you’ll like
I may say things
But they are lies
So I won’t let you enjoy them
I’ll whisper them to my soul
And comprise
All the things I did
I am not great
Nor beautiful
But you are
You all are
You are wonderful children walking
Talking
And smiling
I once drove and passed out
On the side of the road
Because
I hadn’t slept in days
I almost left school
But instead was sent to a hospital
For cuts
And blood
My neighbor found me
He was a young boy
Asking if I had boo boos
The cold floor and nothing in our pockets
They took everything in that hospital
They took our sanity
And our love for what makes us
Us
We got let out
And went our separate ways
But they all died
Within that year
So now
When I hear talk of mental illness
Or someone
Pretending
To have one
Thinking it’s cool
Or whatever
The ****
They
Do
I think of my friends
In the pond
Frozen dead
Or in their bed
With needles injected into their skin
Sure
It’s all in my head
But I live there
My head is my home
And your head is your home
I don’t know
Junk garbage and drive away
I felt like writing something
That doesn’t make sense
And I did
Because I don’t understand
What is happening
But I hope to help
And make you smile
So you can at least have some joy
Some joy
Which was robbed
From
Me
I’m sorry

A deity, a purge, and a sin
Bring your watches to Berlin
Drown your children in bathwater
Then go find a rabbit to slaughter
Cut your tongues out with clever words
Feed what you’ve cut to the birds
Let them feast on your richness
You have no sickness
Fall in love with someone you think is great
Then realize they’re unbearable by the fifth date
So cut them down with a round to the head
Then cut them up and put them in your bread
Kick a dog because it barked too loud
Then go sit on a hill and watch the mushroom cloud
Let the dirt settle on your skin
Try to focus as the world starts to spin
Rip off your fingernails and eat them
There’s no one left to condemn
Look at your phone in a desperate attempt to pass the time
Focus quick so you don’t notice a world covered in grime
Don’t read any books
If you do you’ll get strange looks
Fit in
Watch Netflix
****** your family
Tear your eyes out now
Take the vow
To spew whatever you were taught
That way you always have a blind spot
Get ***** at a party and pretend it doesn’t matter
Let him ******* on your face with a splatter
Drink your emotions
There’s enough alcohol to fill oceans
Play girls and call them *****
Pray no one confronts
Grab your car keys
Run over everyone and break their knees
Make them cry
Watch everyone you love die
Do you give a **** about love?
Shoot down a pigeon and realize it’s a dove
Grab a flower and put it in her hands
Feels great until you find out where she stands
Smoke your dope and ***** to your crew
They all believe to be tried and true
They’ll cry when you hit them with a fire axe
Everyone tells me to relax
Don’t act like you love me
I’ll burn you until you get third degree
Quit crying
You’re just wasting your time with dying
Swallow your pride
And hang your bride
Dig your nails into your neighbor’s skin
You have the strength within
Rip off your ears
Break your ribs
Jump off a building
Float down a rapid
Lay on a railroad track
Get their attention so they’ll call back
Do anything for their love
Cry on the floor all by yourself
Ignore all the books on your shelf
So hand over your watches
Stop telling time
And realize there are no victimless crimes

Today I sat in a room full of people
And listened as they read their lines trying not to make a mistake
Today I sat in a room full of people
All trying to prove they belong and have the talent to be there
Today I sat in a room full of people
Who are trying to fit in and not be hated
Today I sat in a room full of people
Who don’t understand
That they are sitting in a room full of people
And they are the background
For the other peoples
Room
Full
Of
People

I can’t find the words to describe how you make me
Feel
I can only find the memories that don’t seem
Real
I chased you for more years than I’d like to
Admit
During those times I felt like absolute
****
You made me feel better and you made me feel
Worse
Sometimes I wish time would
Reverse
But I can’t and it
Won’t
I should say something to you but I
Don’t
I’m writing this simply to try and put this in the
Past
Maybe I will be able to move on at long
Last
I’m sorry that it didn’t
Work
I’m sorry I was such a *******
****
I always made you regret the things that you
Did
But I can’t ever let things go, God
Forbid
But, I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t still in
Love
You were my gracious
Dove
So with this last piece I am
Writing
This is goodbye to all the emotional
Fighting
Goodbye to the nights I wished I was somewhere besides
There
Now I would trade the worlds worth just to go back and
Stare
At the wonderful sight that is
Yourself
But now I have to place trust in
Myself
I must go and find the lost piece of my
Soul
Though I’m sure that is what you
Stole
Perhaps I will never love so deeply
Again
Perhaps I was modeled after a
Sin
But now I must say goodbye and
Farewell
To the girl I thought anything I could
Tell
Now I don’t recognize you when you enter a
Room
You’ll find happiness in someone else I
Presume
But know, if late at night as you stumble in your
Thoughts
You may find this and connect the
Dots
That I am still mindlessly wandering
About
While it seems you have your whole life planned
Out
Perhaps you weren’t as perfect as my mind
Portrayed
Yet whenever I sit and think under a great tree in the
Shade
I still think of when you first kissed
Me
And how I finally felt
Free
From the pain I felt
Inside
The pain so apparent it couldn’t
Hide
So with this final goodbye I will let you die in the
Past
Where we were both apart of a play yet
Miscast
Goodbye my love
Goodbye my sweet dove